i'm feeling the pain. Why are you doing this to yourself? i sense you are suffering, i see you are sufferring, you tell me you are suffering.. and there's nothing i can do here. " talk to me to 8 45. i wan to talk"..do you know how this sentence aches my heart? i hate this blardie helpless feeling. i wana cry. serious. it isnt good seeing the special person tt you treasure so much torturing herself and i can only say take care take care take care...it's useless..you tell me you will..you tell me not to worry..but i know it's not gonna be like tt..but WAT CAN I DO?! damn it! i couldnt think of a better thing to say...

but why you? of all ppl why do i feel such affinity towards you? i cant find a reason.it doenst matter how far we are, if doenst matter whether we even talk to each other...certain things just doenst matter..nothing can explain..it's like my destiny..i can feel so much for your situation i dono why. others i don give a blardie damn. and yet, i'm seeing you piercing yourself with your own thorns, bleeding yourself dry. i cant stop it neither can i leave it. i can only suffer with you. it's weird..ppl do have expectations for others. i have non for you. don ask me why.. coz no matter how much you've changed... i ll take you as you are..
strange as it seems but it's true..the naked sense sometimes see too little - but then always they see too much.

me cai yirui and jinghan~  

me and cai again...y? coz she's damn amazed by my British Airways~~ -__________-lll.. 

me and cai~ she's in hall 13 wor~ serious i think my class has tonnes of chiobus(pls refer to class photo)~ haha... if any of yall interested tell me~hahah! =D..anyway...the background is nice hor! 

ppl~ cover your ears! ZHIHUI's HERE! haha this gal is loud and cheeky as ever.. 

anyway...this is the REAL difference in height~~..SORRY XIAO P!! my bao bao!! haha~ bi bao rox~ 

stary stary night~~ the MAF committee did a good job for the lightings~i love this photo! 

the pretty pretty lanterns at the central plaza! 

a bit blur...but PW grp!! yes the horrendous PW..haha~ gosh...i'm qutie impressed by whoever who starte the PW photo taking thingy..i mean..WHO ll rmb tt?!!?haha! 

A13!!! but xiya hon amm shiyu zhiwei and stella are no longer there...haiZ..ziqian is somehow as extra as ever!!hahahah! 

MAF! heehee Jing yirui and me!! 

i felt bloody rudy stupid today. f*ck. Never in my life did i feel so small/undereducated/naive/immatured/lacking in thinking/inferior in front of ppl ard my age. yes. i'm intimidated after realising that my scope of knowledge and experiences are so damn extremely limited.

my gosh they are merely 1 or 2 yrs older than me and they can engage in my dad's ABSTRACT discussions-- abt philosophies, phy, math, life sciences, politics, ideologies, visions in life blah. By discussion i, by no means, suggest that they are having frivilous shallow facade chit chatting session like the way WE,ok i shall not generalize but at least for me, have been talking for my past how many yrs. To think tt i used to be proud of myself: of my thinking, my tots... How shallow. Superfical.Narrow-minded of me. I 've never in my whole life seen my dad engaging in such a discussion before( a prof Vs undergrads discussion). He, on NO account, has told me all those stuff. Well, cant hold him responsible. I'm seriously not up to the standard. What's the problem man! i mean, we are ALL undergrads! why such distinct a difference?! bloody hell, i felt like a silly pri sch kid looking retardly at da1 shu1 shu1 and ah1 yi2 men2 talking anything but my teeny weeny pathetic scope of knowledge.

Is it just me or is it the education system? no doubt it's more of the latter. coz i see nearly none of the ppl ard me equipped with such an apt and questioning mind. sucks. and to make things worse..i'm receiving this whole package of singapore education system .
boy..it sucks.

i have no thinking of my own. such ignorance is briliant. f*ck.

ok..this post might sound a little extreme coz i'm feeling very agitated.
if i have offended any pro singapore edu system ppls. i'm sorry. you are INVITED to LEAVE this blog.

on a lighter note, which doesnt concern me anyway, my dad's Uni pal, who is now a Harvard Prof ( goodness! i din know he has SUCH uni frens!) happens to drop by singapore and is going to visit us!

me: hey dad..errr so WAT happened to you?
dad: ...coz i was too slack to bother abt my eng tt time. PLEASE remind me of tt...

end of this horrendous day.

--yuzhe the P1 kid

this year's maf is definitely blogworthy.. i'm just so so so glad tt i went..it's kinda stupid for tt mental struggle before going come to think of it...the turn out was somewat disappointing( and a little boring..me and js were seriously feeling very bored before the lighting up)...by tt i mean NOT as many as compared to past years....but STILL there's a lot of ppl~...pt being..i met tonnes of pplz tt i havent seen for ages... sometimes you din realize how much you miss some ppl until you meet them...arg..i love Hwa chong...Huang Cheng...A13...LEP..

i'm tired...shall update you guys on the details some other day...when i can upload the pics~ tata!