hahahha....finally one day freeeeeee of PW!!!! can enjoin my niteZ onlining~~~~ toking cock~~ blogging... SO SIOK!
this is wad u call life mah!!!! hee~:p

got back all my results.... surprisingly above my expectation~ so i'm kinda satisfied... wo yao qiu bu gao~~ anyway..results this kind of thing hor....rly muz take it easy... even it might be hard ... esp when one haf not experienced failure b4~~...
but well..life's a not bed of roses... think in another view... it's better tt u experience failure now den later in life rite? belief me... u ll find urself stronger if u can zhen4 zuo4 qi3 lai3! i have ultra huge faith in yall!!!!

never ever felt so glad tt i was fr NY (it suxs in many ways i cant deny...)... but going through all those SUCKY disappointments and failures... i m proud to say tt... i m able to hua4 bei1 fen4 wei2 li4 liang4 n chiong~~~ at the same time take it easy... i mean....failing in NY's like so damn common to me during Sec 2... esp maths... getting a pass was like..HUH? Did the teacher make a mistake???? hahaahaaha... the most ultimate depressing thing is tt... all those in my clique went to TOP triple science classes... or rather the BEST class.... no no.... 80% of my classmates went to those classes...HAHA! to think how despondant i felt tt time... life's like so gloomy... doubting my abilities... quesioning my future... i don feel like studying at all... no motivation.. decided to slack and havoc my whole sec 2 yr.. yet...life's bitter... haha..so ironic

zi4 bao4 zi4 qi4.... i reaped wad i sowed... i was posted to a normal double science class... but but but... i am not WEAK! hey hey~~~ i managed to regain my confidence... or rather...wanted to show tt i'm as capapble as those triple science students... i vowed tt i MUST CHIONG CHIONG CHIONG ~~~..tt's y i come hwa CHONG mah (.....kk.. not funny...)hahaahha.... n i rly did.... motivation's rly useful man! haha...
i dare to say tt.....sec 3 n 4 were like my most treasured yrs in NY... not sec 1 n 2... realised tt enjoy must come together with studying... my results were much better.. n i enjoyed life!!! not to 4get... i found a grp of zhu1 peng2 gou3 you3~~~haahahha.... rly is sai4 weng1 shi1 ma3~~~~:)

SOOOOOOOO~~~ all those gloomy gals n guys out there~!!! BE STRONG!!! :)

wei~~~~ wad MVP.... don anyhow say can???? hahaha.... but is he MVP or not huh? hao xiang shi leh~~~.... hiyah... at 1st tot he good guy....ermmmm..... i mean....nice guy.... decent guy......hahhha...but heard he's bad leh~~ hu shd i belief???? but...nvm.... as if i care~~ just htink he bball v zai only mah~~~ hahha....better don let him read this...hahaha
but seriously...he rly doesnt look like those....kk.... looks are deceiving~~

eh!!!!! ZHI PING n IVAN!!! i gonna tie1 da4 zhi4 bao4 liao!!!!!!! hahha.... u just go count how much u owe me????? last time the hong lou still havn pay yet~~~ now need to collect $10 more... later i ask gu3gan3 to roll over u den u noe~~~hahaahaahahha...


hey~~~~ anyone noe how to do the MAF report huh? in chi somemore...... i even more no tou2 xu4 leh~~~~~~ :X

HEY HEY~~~ after a rather looooooooooong diappearance.... i'm finally BACK PPLE!!!! haha...kk....or rather..i finally finish my part for pw liao..PW IS INSANE LAH~~~ driving me crazy!!!!!! come one!! wat kind of life is this!!!!! after promos already leh!! (k...as if others enjoy it~~..i shall shut up..:p)

anway..got back 2 papers liao.. LEP n MATHS..heng heng heng~~ i pass dem...esp MATHS~~ oh dear.. pass rite on the dot! but hor...frankly speaking....i think i deserve to fail (shhhhhhhhh) heehee... guess i'm rly tyco... as usual...arts' math is the lanest of ALL~~~ haha..hey come on! majority get O and F leh( i'm not much better~ ).. u just go compare with the freaky fac s2 or s3?? the lowest grade is a C leh!!!!! C leh!!!! wad the hell... nvm... we shall take it easy.. pple PRC wad to do???

think econs n hist hor... fierce more lucky less... think i no control of the subjects leh (like wad xy said)...hai..scary~~...but can do nothing now~~ just pray... hope can scheme through~ heehee...at this pt in time... relac lah ppl!!!!

hai...these days hor....after FOS.... it's getting worrying u noe.. pple start to get rly low~~don like the gloomy feeling~..*sobZ* like amm.. kiwi.. helen.. jinghan.. *a heavy sighZ again*.. is it coz of results? PW? or others? RLY hope tt yall can return to normal self SOON! Life is beautiful~~~~~

well... i'm really worried for ivan... he's in danger of retaining i suppose....given his situation...haiZ... but there's nothing much i can do to help at all... nothing... can only pray for him... he's a nice guy...nice fren.. *pray*

HEY!!!!!! OPEN HOUSE was GREAT! though somehow...not as many pple as compared to last yr.....(y uh?) but this yr is much more organized n interesting i guess~~~ hahaha... both LEP and Chi Soc were well-received leh!!!!! WoOhOOOOOooo~~~~ 11 claps! but still....gotta say a BIG sorry to Chi Soc Exco~~..sorry tt i din help much.. coz i'm helping LEP.. RLY sorry!!!! *90 degree bow* sumimase~~ actually partly coz i was somehow rather low tt day too...:S
what's wrong with me these days........hmmmmm.....

KKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!! i shall stop all my HAIZ n SIGHZ!!!! i feel like a OBASAN liao lah~~~ or rather... a whiny old woman~~
NO! heY hEY~~ i'm still young n pretty (k....time to PUKE :P) wahahaha~~ cannot liddat~~...

wOoHoOoOoOoOoOoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NITEZ EVERYONE!!!! parden me for this incoherent and crappy blog~~ :p

EH!!!! though i'm once again damn tired today~~ i'm rather satisfied!! HAHA~~~ the bball finals was RLY impressive!!! so tactical!! So swift!!so ZAI!! so....wateva!! WAO~ good match man! but well... somehow feel a little lack of spice~ maybe coz i'm too neutral... not supporting any side~~ heehee...

but somehow...admist of the match... the atmosphere suddenly tensed up or something(k....duh?!)... pretty scary u noe~~ i kind of predicting that a fight might result or something... so i diam diam don dare to say anything :x....worried that later kena pull to some secluded area n dear a13 wont be able to c me again~~ hahahahhahahhaha... no lah..toking cock~ :p... but it din happen anyway~ *phew*...

OH! the hu huh...what's his name??? xin ru???? (how come a bit gurlish leh? *look ard* *shhhhhhhhh*) hahaa....he's a V good player! wao! c him play sooooooooo siok! when he gets the ball....u ll c 3-4 opponents choing him~ RLY not intimidating loh~~

haha.....anyway~ so enjoyable~ good fight 64!

美好生活

我们走向深渊，是存在理由的。

我看见一个人专心致志
用钉子钉头
用石头砸脚
我听见他全身的悲鸣
然后，他说："毁掉我
毁掉这一个我"
我相信，这个世界上
他的另一个我，过着
美好生活

溺水者

溺水者满嘴泥沙 在午后
被捞了出来
溺水者脸色苍白 嘴唇发紫
犹如一张被上帝弄脏了的纸
他是否真的告别了生的沸腾
而进入了静止的死
放下望远镜 我却无法继续
我中断了的写作
我被这偶然看到的事件所困扰
散乱的思绪 犹如透过放大镜的光一样
被聚焦在一个点上
生与死 一个古老而又堂奥的问题
像电鳗一样在瞬间击伤了我
我是不是一个溺水者
手抓一根救命的稻草
正在水中拼命地挣扎
或者 我早已被太多的水所淹没
甚至是死了连自己也不知道
就像这个溺水者 躺在阳光下的沉默
我看到的几个救生人员徒劳的忙碌
和一群围观者 无聊的好奇

i'm damn tired~ all coz of FOS....i mean....i have NEVER (note: NEVER) touched (n don feel like touching haha) a football in my life..... at least it has been so for my past 17 years......what is dis~~~~~~ hahhaa..... but it was quite funny after all...rly last min tou1 shi1 fr teckmeng loh....but apparently..it doenst help....haha.... no lah....at least i learnt tt when the opponent is approaching....u gotta move in front to tackle him not back....hey...it might be common sense to some pple lah...but yall mus understand a soccer idiot like me~...anyway...coz of my extreme blurness....s61 score a goal...hahEz...sorry....but it doesnt occur to me that i have to prevent the ball from rolling into the net......hahha... BUT i MANAGE to stop a goal leh!!!!!!!!!! as in rly stop leh!!!!! haha.....stupid lah.....i was pretty shock myself too...which means....in other words....its just pure luck...tycoism......haha....my hand just happened to be dere n it somehow found its way to my hand....nothing to do with me rly~....heeZ~ :p......eh...though it's only 8 mins loh......it seems 10s n 1000s of years for me!! haha.....1st time i concentrate so hard on the ball... it's rly physically n mentally draining loh....tt's y i so tired even i din do much...anyway.....hope tmr i ll be tyco again....*pray*ohmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm*......*grinZ*

just wan to add that.......ivan is RLY zai loH! haha.. Denzly is another zai giak too!!!!!!! i c him i was like OH DEAR~~~~ y he so near me~~ shoo shoo go away~~ haha.....:p

i intented to publish some chi posts....but well....too tired liaoZ.....wait for another day den~

WOO~~today's a rly happening day~~as in for me lah~~ haha....not in terms of jingbao but but but~~
haha... feel v happy....1stly...i got my ZHI WEI T!!!! though i don rly like the colour(orange) initially..but well..it turned out to be pretty seh after all haha...the design's cool too! just tt it's a little too ex...eh..come on lah..1 t shirt $19 RLY NOT v X loh~ haha...den den den...i FINALLY got the invitation to go n collect my trophy n prize!! haha..trophy not impt lah...the $xxx is more appealing~~heehee...more allowance!!:P den hor....I WATCHED MADAME BUTTERFLY liao!!!( suddenly feel so cultured! heez) for those pple scrathcing their head...madame butterfly is neither stella nor eng version of liang zhu...at least non of them turned into butterflies..yall fang4 xin1~~haha (plz lah! dono how many pple asked me liaoZ...rly is thank loH~ haha) it's a poignant ballet based on Puccini's immotal opera...n the storyline's roughly revolves ard this Am Lieutenant married a Jp gal n abandoned her after the war and her deepening obsession with his return is brought to a crushing and dramatic end...wah biang eh~~ wat kind of LAN4 nan ren is this!!!!! 2 timer loh~!!! got fiance liao still like tt shui3 xing4 yang2 hua1~~!!! before i watch the ballet i already turned off by the oh-so-lame storyline liao loh~.. n it's supposed to be TRAGIC!! wa~~even more thank!! don c anything rly tragic( k.tragic for the Mdm Butterfly lah)..it's all coz of the blardie guy loh~ not as if like liang zhu liddat..both rly totally in love with each other but cannot get together~~..the most ironic part hor...when i look at the brochure...it says it's A GREAT LOVE STORY..haha....like real (roll eyes)

kk...enough kaobehing of the plot....but the ballet itself really is HOW NICE!!!!Weich's beautiful choreographic expression has all the fluidity and grace to convey the soaring romanticism and tragic desperation which is at the core of this whole story...OMG!! is rly transparently engaging!! the lead dancer is..is...is damn graceful! i bai4 dao3 at her shi2 liu2 qun2 xia4~ haha...ballet is gonna be the most impt item on my future daughter's learning list man! heehee
well....the guy is oso v pro....but still....where got pple go c guys loh (i mean ballet lah)...dey sad lah...no matter how good dey are..their presence is just to chen4 tuo1 his female dancer, to provide them with a more variety of actions only ma...sad rite? haha...just tt i don like the cat calls at the end....think it's not rly suitable for this kind of refined art...i mean...don rly think the dancers ll appreciate it loh~ or izzit coz of NY huh? NY always don like us to cat call....as in can lah...but this kind of occasions cant lah~ haha~~ we are cultured pple heehee.....

overall...i rly enjoyed it! all thanx to yiuming~~ for helping us gope the tkts~ long time never c u....but rly find tt u are DAMN cute! haha~~ RLY! to think i din realize it in NY~~today end of ya promos! enjoy! anyway...saw the RJ sc badge...looks quite funny...think the normal one nicer..walao..still got a dog loh..den got wad guarding dog theory....haha...quite lame -_-"':P oh YAH! oso learnt RJ version of saying taking MRT: merting...haha it take me a few mins to get use to it sia~ haha..later if can i help u fa1 yang2 guang1 da4 in HC heehee~

n to yun oso~ though u met tonnes of frens hor...n i met none..making me tt my social circles like sooo small liddat..but hor....after my analysis...it's all coz u got learn BALLET MAH~~ of course ll noe a lot of pple dere lah! which means my social circles not that tiny after all~hee...*zi4 wo3 an1 wei4*(T_T)...btw..thanks for willing bei4 wo3 exploit n pei2 me take mrt~ yeah! noe u v good~....n i shall always be the exploiter! :P

promo is finally over!!! YEAH YEAH YEAH!!!!
YEAH?!
don rly feel tt overjoyed leh~~ felt a bit empty....why?
promos is over isnt it?
went orchard....nothing much....tok crap with ziqian dey all..haha.....n we saw a DAMN lanky women.....
her waist hor....thin until beyond imagination!!!!!!!! walas..rly is Ren Bi Huang Hua Shou loh~~~
seniors are leaving tmr....i mean...it's their last day....
ionly knew it today...guess i'm too preoccupied with promos to realize tt....
rather sad.... de class bench ll be so empty.....
without ppe like teckmeng stoning (out zhao1 pai2), without yukun dere all toking cock dere.....
without others mugging~...haiZ....guess life ll be a little sian....haha
anyway~... toking abt LEP paper~~~~~
haiZ...... i rly have to admit defeat in front of all the poems.....so many n yet only choose 1....somemore it's TAO YUAN XIN~
wad de.....haha,....but i write until i wan to laugh oso lah~ coz i was like trying to figure out the poem n failed
n out of my extreme pekcheyness......brilliant me decided to invent my own TAO YUAN XIN~ haha....think xiao rui ll cry when marking heehee.... n chai guan oso!!!!!!! walaoZ....... i left 55 mins to write tt loh~ n i spent nearly 20 min stoning.....staring at the clock....looking at de dear chi hist teacher Lin Lao Shi~....den looking at all those pple who frantically asking for ever more n more pieces of paper.....den i stare at my own paper again~ HAIZ.....
rly dono wad to write.... but but but~~~ i still managed to write 3 n 1/2 pages!!!!!!! all thanks to my marvellous crapping skills.....think taking arts rly got some help ya~ but think ll at least secure 3 marks for tt section....haha coz i noe it's a dialogue btw Wang Li Fa n Qin Zhong Yi~ heehee...
hey!!!! Mr Teh trauma me leh!!!!!!!! he say got pple fail his!!!!!!! not fr out class lah! but is coz he havn mark our class yet!!!! *qiu2 shen2 bai4 fuo2* i don wan to fail it!!!!!!!!!!!
haiZ....promos is rly rather disencouraging leh..... trashed all my hopes....but well.....i'm pretty ok with it
just hope tt i can pass every subject....(so gotta pray for maths!)
dono lah~.....just leave everything to god.....n i promise i ll take it easy~ haha.....
meanwhile~ i shall go *shao1 3 zhu4 xiang1*

红 橙 黄 绿 蓝 紫 黑

灰

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well well well
promos is 1/2 done...
so far.... so bad
3 papers...
econs maths GP
all facing a downward sloping demand curve...
damn INelastic somemore....cant just one be of
a ostentatious demand curve?
sux
refuse to think abt any dreaded results
but hopes shall not be too high
dun understand...
making all those suicidal stupid mistakes tt
even the dumbest wont...
luck's just not on my side i guess....
just like wat i've expected...
2 is a cursed digit
for me...
it was it is n it will
trust me
ABYSMAL
an ABYSS of rotten apples
satan
save me
ha