darn. i'm procrastinating my tutorials like crazy...guess it's rly time to ermZ..start working..haiZ...but still...though i like su lao shi's lesson..but glad tt fri don have..haha coz don feel like writing zuo wen..o_O..keep telling myself tt i shall start mugging later (how late is infinite sia~)...HAIZ..rly shd stop slacking liaoZ..:(

oh~ something to spice up my life! i wanna watch untold scandal n my girl!!! anyone interested??? cant imagine my first movie of the yr was haunted mansion~~~urmZ..quite pathetic..brainless show manZ..weak plot oso..typical HOLLYWOOD B- grade movie!! haha...legally blond oso much better! but oh wells..cant blame coz i was the one who initiated to watch it~ Oops..hahaa...:P..but watching such fatous movies once in a blue moon was not tt bad after all...hahaha...

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!@#$ i wan to dump my history papers lah..burn it fry it..tore it..WATEVA it loH~ T_T.. *crys*..cant control the subject at all..spent quite a time schemeing one qn(origins of cold war)..den in the end just BARELY pass..barely as in rly barely 13/25 -_-...then the other qn i kind of roughly studied n did (end of cold war)..which i was like had absolutely NO idea how to do it (i cant do any other topics coz i kan dou mei kan) n just went on crapping ..wrote this whole load of rubbish but got 17/25...WAT IS THIS SHIT U TELL ME??? T_T...history is driving me crazy lah...though wo BU FU ZHONG WANG failed the other SEA paper(teh look at me everytime with his zhao pai sarca grinZ..:P n shake head sia~ haha Oops:P)..haha....haiZ..if there's one sub i can drop..hey hey~~HISTORY u no need paiseh lah...JIU SHI NI LE WOR~~...haiZ..consider if i drop hist...then i left LEP Econs n Math..this shows wat? i'm neither sci or arts inclined...ermZ.tt's quite sad.(toking in thia's slang)..hahaha...haiZ..god noes how shd i handle my history nowZ..bleah..oh well..shall not badmouth hist so much...sca-ly sally n teh come online to check it out den i THAT"S IT~ (den denden den den den den den ....dendendenden den den den den den...)(haha..the cheena "tt's it MUSIC~" haha ...:P

窗口旁鱼缸内的鱼群作息一如往常
理不清它们是喜怒亦或是忧伤
我把泪顺势滴在它们所谓的水床
好希望它们能替我分担一些些伤

过往幻化为泪滴与水溶为一缸
我看到鱼儿轻舔舐去我的凄怆
忧伤于是转成为气泡浮出水面上
“啵”的一声从此消失隐藏
再也无从追计散落的方向

连宋和陈吕的荒谬之极的交战，无动于衷是我由始至终态度。连宋和陈吕之间的区别大体上来说真的在于对台独的态度。基于选举因素，连宋只能选择站在与阿扁对立的立场来选举。基本上，国民党一直以来都是支持台独，连宋at best只是支持慢性台独罢了。so wat's the pt manZ.. 让他们闹下去吧...闹得越凶越好。反观中国政府，已经让我越来越受不了。令.人.反.感。在外交上，你的软弱迟疑令人羞愧。除了“中央将会密切关注台湾...”“中国中央将慎重警告台湾...”，你到底做了什么？听腻了。只要人家美国一出马，不就灰溜溜，乖乖就范。点头哈腰--历来的外交政策。访问了不下百名中国青年对于日本再次侵华这一假设的态度，近半表示乐意当汉奸。wat is this shit..如果说经济的侵略是道德沦丧的根源，i have nothing to say...但是 my BELOVED CCP，如果你的贪污腐败虚伪无能没有令人这么心灰意冷，如果大家对于目前的生活不能说满意，但还过得去的话，现象会这么严重吗？一味地谴责国民性弱点，好片面。徘徊在即将完完全全的失去民心的边缘，N U R NOT DOING ANYTHING MUCH. 你---好.至.为.之.

I've got something to announce!...science students n those F maths pple...dont...i mean DONT with a capital D, capital O capital N capital T...DONT laugh hor... i've just gotten back my MATHS paper today...

---N I PASS!!!! 53/95!!!!!

okok...laugh laugh laugh...:(
nah...don compare with those S2 S3 pple lah...whose lowest grade for promos was..a C? to think my class last yr only got a B n C...ermz..quite pathetic but hey~ wat can u expect fr ARTS?? muahahaha...ok..nothing to be proud of...:( but oh wells..am i super tyco or wad manZ..managed to pass wor..to think it's the subject tt i touched least on..to think i finished it in abt 1n1/2 hrs' time n spent the rest of the hr..slacking n staring at the row of S2 or 3 class nxt to a12..trying to get some sort of inspiration fr them...n waiting casually fr the MATHS AURA to diffuse to me (which dint lah of course~:P)~~ muahahahaha...despite all those blanks i still managed to pass~~ WOO~~~ *cheers*..so proud of myself..maybe at this lucky n intelligience (muahah) my maths ll improve fast at an exponential rate wor!!...^^V..Oops..i think i sound a LITTLE bit niao towards those F maths pple...OOps...:Pp

ok...now is something tt's rly worth laughing..xw, we same life together pity arh~~i'm FORCED to embark on an equally sacred task...X-stitch T_T..by my dearest mom..DONO wat gone wrong in her mind lah..one fine day in the hols after huang cheng she suddenly heart blood come tide n bugged me to learn some kind of X-stitch fr her..erm..i think it shd be X-stitch lah :S..i rly WAN leh..i think she super sia at home loh~but since tt time i was rotting at home den..i was thinking no harm trying lah..OH MY~~ grave mistake arh~...to think i don even noe wat's X STITCH loh~...tt successfully make me realize one thing: my home econs back in NY = as CMI as XW~...feel a little stupid..y on earth did i ever agreed to do SUCH borliao stuff~~T_T...tsk tsk..now left the ermz...1/4 done thingy dangling dere super pekchey..but oso don feel like completing it...TSK TSK!!!

独步寒风
听越过身的古典
枫叶飘来
一片初冬般冰冷的思念

听清淡的水色
排金色的暮光
心跳
犹一候鸟鸣声于蓝天

一片乌云
照着瘦瘦的思念
拨向清辉中
投霜降痴迷的慵醉

一片枫叶
在我的视线
寻找秋的
眼泪

我们明年黄城夜韵再见。

戏总算上演了。笑声，掌声此起彼伏。戏固然好看，可是真正的好戏，一年之前已经开始上演，现在终于接近尾声了。观众看的只是成果而筹备者珍惜的却是过程。

最后一次站在台上唱着华初的歌，向观众挥别，大家哭了。
无心去观众席见朋友，只是慢慢地走过每一排座位，看着被遗弃在地上的<<黄城晚报>>和一张张明信片。偷偷溜回行政房间，对着空无一人的房间发呆。为了赶在十一点之前离开，我们走得如此仓促。如果有时间，我好想到地下层捡回高一时洒了满地的笑声，捡回舞台左右翼遗留下来换场的脚步声，捡回作为临时演员的那颗七上八下的心。如果有时间，我想再练一次谢幕，因为我们的歌声总是跟不上音乐，我们牵的手偶尔断了线

我们明年黄城夜韵再见。

LEP room 再也不会有票务，宣传和秘书强占那一台台的电脑，再也不会在门外贴上“正在划票，请勿打扰”的字条。amphitheatre 再也不有一条白色带子和一个贴着“黄城夜韵2004”的木板来划分出黄城道具的地盘，B block 的一楼，再也不会一片喧闹。每天下午，再也不会有演员和司仪放肆地仰天长啸百石塔的故事；夜里，黄城的食堂又变得格外冷清。九点过后，03a13的class bench也不会再有舞督和组长的秘密检讨。唉，放学后赶去开工已经成了难以遏止的潜意识。

我们明年黄城夜韵再见。

就像我们曾经属于去年，站在台上呐喊与期盼着我门的“明年”，“明年”已经在一片忙碌中不知不觉地溜走了。如今，“明年”的我们却已无法实现谢幕时向观众许下的诺言；“明年”的我们只能在漆黑中寻找自己在历史的定位，只能在回忆得深谷里寻找昔日的风采...这，唯有沾满泪水与落满花瓣的舞台最了解。对了，还有那十五元的票根。

我们明年黄城夜韵再见。

会的。明年，后年，大后年，戏还是会上演。

was drained inside out yesterday...trust me...it's even harder to sell tkts to the public...those ah behs hor!! not i wan to say lah...rly is not i just stand dere n smile n say "sorry to interrupt, we are students fr hwa chong JC" den dey cut us off n shaked their hands n go " NO NO"...shooing us away...what is this..-_-..HMPH! this is on top of the fact tt we were carrying ultra heavy bags~~~...

N pls..if u DONO where the hell the place is when others ask for direction rite..just ADMIT tt u dono...DON have to ACT knowledgable...-_-...make us climb up n down bras basah then found out cao geng is actually in another MALL!!!! T_T they BU HAO LOH!! anywayZ...tt cao geng rly got A LOT of pple leh -_-...we rly not da cang ying there lah..haiZ..but how cao geng like quite famous leh? it's quite erm..small..n the place is rather ulu..erm yah..then how come the whole world noes this place but i dont? Oops..*hides*

bleah..yi yan nan jing...T_T..cant wait to go VT so tt i can slack...haha...fat hope sia~:

side track a bit..HEY!!! i forget the smell of the CINEMA liao larh!!! when's my last movie? CANT EVEN RMB~~T_T...tt's quite sad~~~ hahaha...

hey hey~~ today i'm so happy!!! WoOohOooO~~~ end of Block Test leh!!! YEAH!!! i was like staring at those stupid history Qn..but my heart was already somewhere out dere...(hahEz..i love tt song~:p)
hahah...but the piao wu work was like how...how shd i phrase it...how LUAN~~ i was like chiong here n dere rushing in n out of lep room until nearly lai wu ying qu wu zhong loh~~ maybe i can master Huang Feihong's WU YING TUI~Oops..bu hao xiao~:P

DEN DEN DEN...our trauma trip to SAJC...WAH~~ rly not the whole sch looking at me n thia...having the "what r these pple doing here?" T_T..our sch U rly not a little diff fr theirs lah...rly can camoflage loh~~...then the sch rly not a little cramp den rly not every where u turn got lots of pple....T_T...me n thia like ZOO liddat...haha..can set up PIAO WU DONG WU YUAN liao lah~ OOps...you bu hao xiao liao...sorry today substandard...:P

of course...a trip with thia cannot end with no throw face things rite??? she rly not like assume assume so sure tt 97 can go IKEA...den i happily naively decided to trust her once...WAH~ rly not leading us to NUH...erm... a bit the far fr IKEA you mei you....haiZ...all coz of her dear fren Adran lah...anyhwo say 97 can go~~ but oh wells..our trip down to IKEA was rly fruitful!! hey hey~~settled huang gifts liao!!! me so HAPPY!!! yeah!!! i think our prezzies r going to rawk the world!! yeah babe!! hahaha...Oops....shall not hao lian it now...:p

haiZ...tmr is going to be such a tiring day...gotta face all sorts of erm...pple again...haiZ...xi guan le...wat to do? cannot sell tkts cannot ask us go da jie bank rite? (i wish i could loh)...a tough day ahead~~ JIA YOU PIAO WU!!! we rawk!!!! yeah!! :)

疏雨，西风，淡淡烟。小阁画，帘幽卷。
缠绵东篱下。

月斜，梦断，胭脂泪。倚婵娟，画楼月。
一曲蝶恋花。

(没写过词，有点不伦不类:P..不过好像是这样吧...:))

WOW~ it's my 1st time watching huang cheng 2004...erm...quite sad sia~ hahah...but well...was rly impressed by 1/2 shui...it's just so WOW...i'm speechless :)...after watching rite..i decided to force n persuade n pysco my mom to watch huang cheng...Well...i think it's the ONLY chance for them to erm..be intact with my life A LITTLE...hahah...at least let her experience MY world...n not live in their own cocoon of si banness...HAHA....but orh well....nothing against them but..just to let them noe that results are just not everything...ENJOYING life n doing what u like is AS GREAT..erm yah..

HEY~ 1 more day to BT...am i feelign like damn relaxed..hahaha...hate the stupid spore edu system...but seriously think abt it..who cares man...if i can do the paper...god bless me...if cant...hahaha...just too bad...shall not waste my time n slp loh..mian qiang shi mei you xing fu de wor~~~ hahaha...^^V...

OH OH!! though BT suck but...haha...still i as a WEI DA de hao ren shall fen xiang my good luck with everyone i noe!! haha...u guys ll be blessed! yao xie xie wo wor! :D :D

I'M already in HOLIDAY MOOD!!! ^^V

（献给不知所云的你or你们）

不管是有意还是无意，你的那番话，刺伤了我。
我稍微变质的笑容，轻易地将一向敏感的你隐瞒过去，把辛酸留给自己。

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我
看见
了解
听见
感觉到
你的声音
你没看见
没了解
没听见
没感觉到
我的心情

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你狭小的鱼缸
容不下属于大海的鱼。

（thia...cheer up~ don be affected by other's unreasonable comments...just not worth it...看到你今天差点哭了出来，我心里真得好难过，难过一半是为了你，另一半是想到这几个星期以来所面对的...ya..u noe...别伤心了，很不值得, 浪费自己的力气，只要我们问心无愧，其他的不重要。我相信还是有人了解的。一定！:)）

tmr is the release of A levels wor~ i can do nothing but PRAY hard for you guys~ hahah...02A13 seniors...zuo min...moo en..yukun..teckmeng..yinjie...yewei..wenjie...yinjie..justin...jilyn..blah blah~~~ n all HUANG CHENG seniors!!! esp DEAREST Da Bao n Da Bi ^^V (Bi Bao RAWKS!)~~~ n YingCi n my Dao Zhangs~~~not forgetting cexiang~~ hahahaha...N all those J3s out dere!!!! ALL THE BEST!! :) you guys are going to be fine! :)

i'm proud to say
i am very proud to say
we the piao wus collected $10023 for Huang CHENG!!!! PPL!! not thousand wor~~ it's TEN thousand! hahahh thankiew thankiew pls hold your applause till i finish..in case it failed to struck anyone of u guys...the amt ended nicely on 23...this yr rly not the 23th Huang Cheng Ye Yun lah~^^V..lucky wor! hao zhao tou! dont yall think it's cool? :D ok ok~~ hands down hands down...hahahaa....tian yi jiu shi tian yi^^...hahha no lah..actually hor..when shuhan wanna pay for her tix..we DIE DIE oso don allow her to pay...so tt can retain the nice nice 10023 ..oso don allow others to pay~ not to forget the process of begging for money when we got like $9964 tt kind no...pekchey one ok...like just lack $36 to 10000 loh! 1st time c SO MUCH $^^V...very high~~ heehee...rly is not count the $10 note until go hay-wire..think my eyes rly got the $_$ sign liao~~:D hiak hiak hiak...HOOHOO~~ Huang Cheng 23 We Rock! :PpPpPpp

HAIZ..i think i'm getting rly sick of certains things... things tt are not within my control...things tt i have tried so hard to achieve...there are just too many things to worry...there is a saturation point...maybe i'm there...HAIZ...
sometimes....cold jokes Do help~~ haha...KIANWEE QUICK!! it's UR time to shook the world with your lameness...HAHA~...
OH!!! toking abt kianwee again... i think i lou diao one CLASSIC one: wad is the cultured version of fei1 li3?....HEY HEY~~no need to waste brain cells...FR KIAN WEE LEH~~ hahaa....ans: Wen Li (boon lay~)!!!

haha...ni cai dao le ma~~?? :D