你的陨落
对抗着病魔
坚强
抗拒不了
死神残酷的诱惑
空气
变得沉重
也许
这是一种解脱

我一直相信, 只要你能撑过这两天, 新的一年一定是一片海阔天空...直到你昨晚入院...我还是如此相信着...
你是带着微笑离去的...这已经够了...

梅艳芳在12月30日凌晨2点50分陨落
我
默默地祈祷

only slept for 30 mins in the moring in front of Delifrance from 26th to 27th n still went for a good swim at nite for 2 hrs...boy..was i crazy or wad..haha..n the hrs of slp i had at nite failed to console me of my lost hrs of slp...11pm to 9 am..haha.. i was hoping tt i could just snore off like a pig for the whole day..X(..haiz..another unattainable ambition~..but still..energy level is as low as it can possibly be...

A BIG APOLOGY to my 2 dear pws~...gosh..gotta explain the whole scenerio again.. ok.. i noe abt the smj of pw rather long ago..but i was apparently not aware tt ONLY me got the msg..errr..after i realize i cant make it..tried numerous ways to arrange another time..but msg n calling seniors were of no practical use...NO REPONSE fr them..told jt abt it online.. think i sort of mentioned abt the meeting..but it might just slip off hier mind..haha.. oh~ ask jt to try calling other seniors..n inform me if there's any changes...but haiZ...think she cant get them oso..n tt's the break down n cut off of communication..haha..sorry guys..

gosh..time to seriously give some tots to all those hols hw...lost touched of it for damn long..haha..or at least..try to do something abt it..not going to set the standards too high ya? :P..oh no~ i have NO idea where i placed GP bulletin or wateva..de "ideas n dono wad"...2 bklets somemore (izzit?) !!!! oh no...so how am i suppose to do it? hate gp man...darn
n when am i going to catch lotr??haiZ..is it doomed tt i would just miss it again???? Urgh
oh..anyway..perhaps the lotr screened in singapore is CUT too~ u may NEVER noe.. they even cut IF 3 where there's no NC 16 or RA stuff...i mean.. even if if has wat singapore consided 'extremely violent' n 'misleading for youths'...it oso has absolutely NO reason to CUT tt part!!!...pple..time to launch complainS~~ hmph

i feel DAMN cheated... by the cinema.. *fuming*
the Infernal Affairs III that i watched was not the ORGINAL COMPLETE version! watched the IF III dvd n realized tt between Andy Lau made a chaotic mess and shot himself in the security department...AND he being paralysed in a wheelchair staring blankly into the space (with the 2 marys), that's were it's was cut man~~ ard 3-4 mins i surmise.. n that kena "cut" part explains tonnes of question marks for many... at least the real identity of Chen Dao Min was some how more patent... n the thought evoking conclusion..i'm CHEATED!!! ok ok.. tt "cut" part goes like this... after andy lau shot himself... the inspectors went to his office... chen dao min was looking through andy lau's pc n found all those video clips of the security depart. he clicked on one.. de window was enlarged ony to c leon lai walking towards to screen, smiling frenly n looking up, he said " HI, peng you" err..something liddat...but din rly catch it...tt part quite sad..
OH..there's this part where Kelly chen n Chen Dao min both visit the graves...chen dao min placed a bullet on Tony leung's grave ( u noe...the one tonly shot n left him crippled..) n lighted up a cigar, placing it on Leon lai's grave....n he toked abt 杨锦荣,陈永仁,刘健明 n himself...他们的相遇是一种缘分...blah...rmb these words of his: "只有事情改变人,人是不能改变事情的,但是他们却改变了一些事情..." n so on....

WAH WAH WAH~~~ am i the ONLY one being cheated by that particular cinema...or the WHOLE singapore is cheated??? DAMN IT!!!

have been busy doing CIP in orchard these days...haha..it's rather enjoyable~...remind me of those good old days of joking ard,doing some stupid things, oblivion of the crowd casting frequent weird glances :D...it seemed so natural last time..but now i have to treasure every min n sec of it so much tt...well...sigh...

saw huiyi n diong today...tt was pleasant surprise~ wao~ fancy the period of time i last saw them...was it during teacher's day?? rly is havn seen them for ages~! was never rly tt close to diong as a fren,but i'm just too blithed to c her...listening to yiyi n her nonsense~~ :P...the long mrt ride seemed so short...recieved yiyi's msg...telling me how glad she was for meeting us...but do u noe i'm just as grateful as u do?

i simply love 4/2 (3/2)...those 2 yrs where the happiest moments in my life.. the class was fantastic.. everyone was so close.. i mean..u would feel so much at ease toking to anyone...free n easy to share ur tots with those u were not tt close...n u are going to get the same response fr them :)..cliques were inevitable but the pt is...the whole (almost) class would sit in a distorted circle n tok rubbish every morning..haha.even during prelims, admist all those muggin, we would still crowd ard the middle row with all sorts of rubbish flying ard again~~ :)...it's not a purposeful act of bonding or wateva shit...everything was just SO natural...so natural tt i took it for granted...no faking...there just izzit a need...life's simple n comfortable...lessons are..sorry to say...much more interesting then now...i mean the teachers...never like NY as a sch... but i simply love the teachers.. n 4/2..

i do made some rly gd frens in JC...but still...it's just so diff..de pple are so diff..in a way it's a positive form of culture shock but something is obviously missing...i'm still trying to adjust...or rather...trying to change to blend in...is it ever attainable? i wonder..hmm.. but no party is to be blamed...each individual has his own lifestyle n xi guans...dere's absolutely no way we can ever change it...

rmb dad said tt JC frens would be the most sustainable n lasting one...i seriously beg to differ... i mean... i do have some sustianable friendships.. but come on.... we have to face it... most are not going to last... i noe it...things just gets rather superficial... well..i cant ask for more... having a few close frens are already beyond my expectation..n it's enough....

it's something tt's gone forever, at least i dun find it in JC...
wen said to me " dono when's the nxt time i ll meet fuhan...."
i wonder.

happy birthday to U, dad. :)

it's a miracle...we meet...when i'm alone in this world..it might never occur to u tt u presence in my life is a special gift for me. pple come n go in my life but i have always reserved a life long place for u beside me.. reminiscing evokes nostalgia...i'm proud to say i have always treasure it...past present future..true friends are not easy to come by...but i'm lucky...what more can i ask?
years down the road, when we turn into grandmothers,would we still be sitting around in coffee bean drinking capuccino? :)

8 da zha xies, 2 quails and 20 strawberries are having UN conference in my digesting system now...:P

"when i'm not in my right mind, my left mind gets pretty crowded."

oh, i've dreamt recently, finally and quite surprisingly...firstly coz the last time i remembered dreaming...that i had dreamt...was rather long ago...and nex cuz i can remember it...though vaguely only...and everytime i wake, i feel renewed and not tired or sleepy at all..
it wasn't bad or anything...just a little weird and...i'm not sure what it means...and i can hardly remember now...
it was dis HUGE yellowish white (?)python...appearing out of this rather big pond in sch( err..is there any pond in the sch in de 1st place?)the sch looks weird anyway..not NY not HC...in no particular order,its hard to remember exactly what happened...but the python seems to be only visible to ME...miraculously..i was not at all freaked out or wadave..err..i think i was astonishingly calm..:P that python seemed to be staring at me..err..looking or wateva (?) i distinctly remembered...n apparently, it appears tt i was pretty glad to see it...wonder what it means...and i think there was a little talking..then i woke and i was the bright light outside...through the window...and i realised it was 8 15 already...so it is only now that it has suddenly came back to my mind...hmmm...
i hoped it meant something...some kind of warning or some kind of prophecy but...i dunno...
yepz and as much as i wished to continue that dream the following day..u noe.. those serial like haha..it didn't happen...
these things are...we can't control such things, dreams...

wo jin tian bei YUEHAN niao dao ji jia lat yi xia xia~~~T_T...poor me....T_T....
hahahha
but as a nice person.... i shall forgive him~~ ^^V
errrrr ok...is coz i cannot niao him back den hor bian~~~T_T....haha
i shall go hone my skills~~~~arh~~~ i need cexiang's help~~~hahahaa...xiya u diam loh~~....u are just too not challenging for me to niao laio~~~:P

oh my~~ back from ZWXH drama camp...1 word.. it simply RAWKX!!!! it was fabulous! fantastic! Wonderful! Impressive!
my grp simply ROX TOO!!!! 2 hua4 bu4 shuo1!!! we are the DA YING JIA!!^^V...though most of them were rather reticent the 1st day.. but 2nd day was..was...was...OH~~~ i'm just speechless!!!...they became so ONZ! so active! haha...yi bing n me were so TOUCHED by them!!! esp by their excellent preformances n their bonding...:)...wad can i say...we were simply swollen with pride when we saw them :)....2 HUA BU SHUO!! WE LOV YALL LOTS!!!

toking abt the camp...guess others ll write tonnes abt it...so i'm not going to touch too much on tt...but it's was rly a success...no matter wad sch they were from..even fr those angmoh schs like MGS and SCGS n SNGS blah...who.. i can say they were not every willing initially...in the end...they also started to enjoy this whole camp...n started FENG with us...i can still rmb during the camp fire...how HIGH all of us were...OH~~ so touched!!! i'm sure tt they were impressed by our ZWXh spirit! ZWXH 's simply the BEST!

All of us had done a super duper good job! 3 cheers for ZWXH!!!

ok pple..realized tt if u wan to read chi here... u gotta go to use unicode... tt is.. click VIEW...den scroll to ENCODING...den u ll c UNICODE...hahah... parden me...my frens..errr most of them... r IT idiot just like me~~ hahha..:P

透骨的冷风
冲穿我的
躯壳
灵魂被吹散
湮没在幽冥的
血河

千年的峨眉
留下一个千年的
奇梦
孤独的昆仑
留不住一个孤独的
玄天宗

飞天的琵琶
弹不尽世俗的
无奈
凌峰上的古叶
今何在?

茫茫天宇
找不到一个神
随风而逝
是肤浅的爱恨

醉者自去
踏雪无痕

just realised i havent blogged for a while...(not as if i have any regular visitors :Pp donno y i keep this oso..hahaz)
anyway...went for Chinese Soc Spring Cleaning...goodness...the accumulated piles of rubbish thrown away were absolutely amazing.. gosh.. surmise an estimation of more than 5 yrs worth of supposedly-valuable rubbish gonna wave a big bye to our hui suo..but i'm not going to miss yall..too bad :P...hahaz.. our hui suo looks like having a BIG time renovation..wahaha..yes..so this superb event categorically worth a place in my blog...hahaZ...it's rly super gratifying lo :P..

oh well...kian wee cracked a super lame+cold+icy joke (as usual :P)..boy..i'm still in the process of defrosting myself.. it goes like this: once upon a time..while a kiwi was jumping ard frenetically outside hui suo.. he fortuitously caught sight of this pathetic teeny weeny ball in a mysterious box..picking it up..scrutinizing it...kiwi suddenly burst out: wo3 QIU2 QIU2 ni3!!!..k.. surmise not many of yall got this oh-so-funny joke~~ hahaha...:P...to enlighten yall...QIU=ball in chi..-_-lll
boy....wad can i say...epitome of lameness~~ wahahahha...:P

anyway..just came back from dinner in front of 'internal affairs 2'...FANTASTIC SHOW! does anyone else feels that wu zhen yu's just so cool? he just surpassed others rite?...rly is fabulous.. hands down hands down...anyway...the scene when huang qiu sheng's car detonated with his buddy inside was soooooo sad...i can feel his hopelessness instantly..seeing ur best buddy burning right in front of ur eyes n u can do nothing but stare...boy..how sad... :(...
Implausible show tt everyone's gotta catch man!

wanted to write something else...but i feel drained...no energy..my brain's numb and dead..:X..think it's time of me to pay my regular visit to dream-king soooon~~ haha.. still have lep meeting tmr at 9am..hmm...not to 4get gonna make tonnes of phone calls to confirm attendence for drama camp...shall start working now~~! :)

oh well oh well...yun's going korea tmr i surmise??? bon vogage ya? looking forward to ur return...*grinZ*...