yes..finally watched the supposedly very famous PERSONA and yes..i can hardly comprehend.. it is the most complex film i've ever came across( thx to biao)..i have NEVER felt so defeated(haha~~~;P) wang jia wei's shows seem like child's play~~~!...but the the story it tells is really quite simple. ..It's just abt this actress Elizabeth Volger has suddenly stopped speaking perhaps to cease all communication with the external world(as what the docter says). She is taken then to a hospital.. where a nurse Alma is called upon to look after her. ..After some time...the doctor feels the hospital is of little use to her and send them to her seaside home.. with nurse Alma of course..Elisabeth still remains silent....the relationship between the women seems to develop pretty fine...until one day, with too much alcohol...Alma starts to reveal her past in front of Elisabeth...it's like..she's becoming the "patient" ...spilling out the intimate details of her life while Elisabeth becomes in a sense the shrink...silently absorbing EVERYTHING.. and a some sort of "transference" takes place...it's like..after Alma discovers that Elizabeth is actually observing her and tells Others abt her past...tt's when the film became hard to follow...it's like...Alma beomes more and more insane..esp when her frustrations and cries at Elizabeth are returned with silence and SILENCE only...wah~~ i ll be equally insane if i found someone betraying me and tt person refused to answer/retort ANY of my accusations or confrontations....you know..wu2 yan2 shi4 zui4 gao1 de qing1 mie4( hong lou bi3 ji4 has thsi saying~~ i RMB!!=D)...then it got me thinking during my bus ride home...when the HORROR of me not getting any PT of the film when it just ended..cooled down and slowly drained away...maybe..it's trying to tell us how we interpret others,..how others interpret us..and the impact that these interpretations have upon both us and them...ALL the peaceful and frenly image that the director portrayed might just be from ALMA's point of view... we are looking at Elisabeth from Alma's perspective...and we interpretate the same way as SHE does...but ever since Elisabeth's letter that kind of betrayed Alma become know... the Elisabeth we "knew" is now suddenly open to different interpretations...and Alma becomes increasingly insane...until the pt tt she might be fantasising or imagining things...and there are certain parts where the images of the 2 women start to overlap...Alma talking as if she's Elizabeth...hmmm...and there are weird images popping out...and i was lost...i couldnt differentiate real vs imaginary anymore...or rather...who is WHO?!at this pt in time...i'm starting to wonder...after the drunk Alma reveals herself in front of Elizabeth... Elizabeth DID mutter something like " dont sleep on the table..go and lay down in your bed.." and when Alma questions Elizabeth abt it the next day..Elizabeth shaking her head( meaning she DIN break her SILENCE)..i was wondering y she LIED..but come to think of it..is it really tt Elizabeth said it or it's just another part of Alma's hallucination? AM I TOO...just choose to believe in WAT i perceive...i tink tt shd be the pt of the film..wat we know about each other rests largely upon what we ourselves project upon them....y Elizabeth laughs at everyone before she falls silent...and y she laughs at Alma when Alma is confronting her...i dono..the only sensible interpretation for me is that she's mocking at humans...how naive we are at believing in wateva we project on others....just how naive we are...." who actually IS the patient" kept ringing in my mind while i was watching....

but still...the beginning and the end weird collage of imagines...seem to have NO APPARENT link at all.....the image of a boy lying on the bed with another old lady/man lying on another bed with his/her hand stretchs out dripping blood( i think), making the "tick..tick..."background sound as the blood dripped into a pail of MORE BLOOD?! dont seem to make sense to me at all.... and then the boy gets up..gets down the bed and started to feel SOMETHING ( nothing..just open air.. i was wondering he might be trapped in this room bounded by tranparent glass panels...) and then...some blurred imagine(a very big one) at the "panel" he is feeling appeared..and slowly beomes clearer.....and it's an image of the face of a woman.............................HUH?!?!?!?!? i was like....wat's going on?!*scratch head* totally lost....hahaha.... i think having to follow the eng subtitles played a part for distracting me..hahahah..*trying to blame it on others* =P...

anyway...Elizabeth only said the word "nothing" towards the end of the film...tts the ONLY thing she said in the whole show...not counting the line she SEEMINLY said to Alma when ALma was drunk....rocks hor~~~-_-hahaha....anyway...high ratings for swedish films!=)

haha..you guys gave me a FRIGHT of my life ok...*freak out*( yeah right~~haha)..sooooooooo...the naughty n restless 113 finally found their way to myyyyyyyy blog( DUH~)..which is kinda in my expectation haha!.but aren't yall supposed to be busy with all the useless projects and stupid homework? tot you guys all always complaining tt yall have NO TIME for TV~~haha..caught yall red handed!=D..EH!~ how can yall blame me!!~~~~ haha..you guys were the ones who DIN bring ALL the textbooks...and BEGGED me NOT to have lesson~~(i rmb sOmEoNe tried to BRIBE me with m&M~~ eh! right! u don try to hide arh~~ haha!)..i did told yall tt you have to pay for slacking right? haha..don try to pretend yall have short-term memory ok~~=D...haha..

so guys( 1/10, 1/13, 1/9&1/12(if u guys are surfing MY blog without My permission too~~=D) HOW'S your usual mundane soporific CHI lessons going? are yall sUrViViNG them fine? yall must be longing me to go back right? -pat pat- oh~i TOTALLY understand your sentiments...HAHA! cant compare with me of course~~haha! well guys...i was expecting another day with yall(thu) but your teacher called me telling me tt she's coming back today...which really caught me unprepared...it was like..i din even get a chance to say a proper goodbye to yall.. -sighZ-..i'm not sure WHEN yall managed to locate my blog..haha..coz my net was down for weeks.. but it brought tears to my eyes*sniff*( note: an eg of exaggeration..kua1 zhang1) aftering reading ur tags..of course i CHOOSE interpretate them as hoping me to teach LONGER~~haha..=P..haiZ..tt's wat i hate abt relief teaching..it's like..when you finally started to build some rapport with your students.. then you have to go..WAT DE?!?!...exactly the same case when i got the chance to teach your direct seniors 2/9,2/10,2/12,2/13....but life's like tt las...loads of fun teaching you guys..haha..though the first lesson might be a little...awkward.. and i tend to talk to the fans,tables,walls,lockers at times..haha..but we got along well i surmise..=) anyway..if you guys find ur chi lessons really unbearable.. can try to reflect to ur teacher.. telling her wat kind of lessons yall wan..like 113 like to play games right? haha..try telling her..and she can then improvise...have to say it in a nice way of course..try not to be too obvious in hinting she's boring of course..haha...anyway..i know most of yall don like chi lessons...but no matter wad..you have to learn it..it's not the time for you guys to CHOOSE wat yall wan to study..so by hook or by crook..you have to learn.. so..dreaming abt NOT studying for it is not practical gals...wat yall can make a difference is HOW you look at the subject...u can choose..route 1: hate it and find it a chore studying it for 4 whole years... or 2: try ur best to like the subject...or at least try to APPRECIATE the subject...tt would make ur studying of the subject a more enjoyable experience...=) which route yall wana take depends on you~...at least tt's my method of studying las...always try to find joy in wateva you study...=)

ORH! this has happened many times..but still...i cant rmb many of yall faces...i've only seen you guys for like...less than 1 week..*phew* (haha! kidding) it's not easy on my part to rmb ALL your faces~~let alone names...those sitting in front..of course i can rmb..but those hiding in the corners writing letters...doing MATH...doing GEO...cant c your faces sia...haha...so cant really rmb...so when yall c me in the streets...or in rgs weeks later( if i'm called to teach again...but probably not yall..) do wave to me ok! don pretend yall dono ME~~~~*yuzhe with a knife in her hands* hahah!.. i might not rmb you but... at least i would know tt i have taught yall before...haha...ok loads of crap...

enjoy ya years in RGS...enjoy your CHINESE lessons( ok...somehow i sound kinda spastic urh? haha=D)...enjoy each and every day you spend with your frens...and most imptly...learn to accept others as they are...and willing to accept different/weird/strange thinkings....and lastly...DARE TO BE DIFFERENT....haha...gosh...i sound really like a teacher...cant believe i'm blogging this..wad de?! haha...but arh...these are my lAsT wOrDs for you guys(last words all sound like this...)..take care ya? =)

orh...feel free to bitch abt wateva things yall wan to bitch abt to me las(if yall have ANY~~~=P)(k..this time i sound like a counsellor...=D)

heyoZ~~ i cant post anything at home nowZ..totally out of civilisation!!! walao...no internet at home life's so SIANZ....anyway..just wana announce tt i'm CURRENTLY still ALIVE and KICKING....don worry~~~hahha...=P...ok...nothing much to say nowZ..my life isnt very interesting...she4 hui4 de4 ji4 shen1 cong2..hahaha! slack life lah...ok...sianZ yuzhe signing off...........