if u sing bad..n feel demoralised by wat pple say abt u..man..u ought to listen to william hung's cd "inspiration"..not tt i bought tt junky cd..but rather being a typical singaporean( haha..not quite though..:P)..i dl it..with lots n lots of remixes..bwahahaha..n i don feel bad..dunno y..maybe i'm just sadist n cynical..haha..but wat to do?:D

was on the bus today when i rmb these mp3s..den i just played it for myself to hear..and i couldnt help but burst out laughing..my fren was sitting beside me n she was like "hey yuzhe siao or wat.." in btw fits of laughter..i explained it to her..she din believe till she heard the mp3..n she TOO laughed SOOO~~ loud..everyone was staring at her n me..Oops..hahas..

tt cd..if given a rating..out of 5 stars..maybe i shd be generous n give it -5..but well..the humour is tremendous...so i shd give it -4..btw the album shd not be titled inspiration..coz all the songs belong to someone..lyke..Hotel California belongs to Eagles(i think)..darn ironic sia~ hahEz..:P

so i was clearing my comp todae...all my thousand-year-old files...oh wells yea...at least i've got my mp3 files sorted out :) and i realised..yuzhe's most dl grp/singer....-still- linkin park n jay man...hahaz
yarh remember my mum... telling me to go 'get my life in order' by packing my room....i mean...is the state of your room a direct parallel of the state of ur life? an apt metaphor to describe my current state of life?...n the prob is my room is NV by any means in any mess..it's just happened tt i have sooooooo many sheet/s of paper all piled up rather clumsyly on my desk( tt's the prob when dey refuse to have textbks) tt i end up in this pathetic state of doing my hw on the dining table..
but we digress u c....as i was about to delete some of my many hist essays n some managed-to-gou qie for 1 yr PW files...yes...stupid hist essays n PROJECT WORK (not piao wu..:p)...i suddenly....she bu de...as in canot bear to...i couldnt bear to delete dem....den i was wondering...wad the hell.it's hisT n PW....but yarh..den again...all my hardwork...flushed down the drain just like that...amazing...i just couldnt bring myself to do it...den my fren said aptly..."gal..must learn to let go"...yes it's true...i remember the last time i cleared my inbox of all those messages good and bad..u'noe those u want to remember cuz it's special and everything...i just deleted it all in a flurry..not a pre-meditated decision but rather one of emotional folly...but hey, must i say..i felt so good after i deleted it...felt like a tremendous weight had been lifted off my back...like i was free.....free from the clutches of my memories...
yes...that's wad it is...memories....yarh..i think..we all want to remember...we all want to have something to remind us of the better (? maybe...) times we had back then..to allow us to go back to their comfort in times of distress...and well yea..handphone messages give us de luxury....even if we dont look at our old messages...they do serve to remind us becuase...well, they're always there...they're like pictures...which reminds me...i dun have a camera of my own...partly coz i don't like taking pictures..but also i believe that pictures...are taken for memory...or rather...to help us remember of some wonderful time that we have...and silly me, at that time thot that if the memory was meant to be remembered...it would b remembered without the help of a picture..haha how idealistic of me.....y den would ppl write poems...draw pictures...film movies....or even blog?! y den am i blogging??!?...it is because i want to preserve this memory of this thought that i thought...it is because the writers want to remember their wise words...the painters want to remember their colourful imagination....oh wells...im getting damn luo suo :P
but what i was talking about is....yarh....the handphone thing...sometimes...clinging on to the beautiful past...prevents us from looking to the future...
aiyahz.....so yarh..bout those files.....why the hell am i still keeping them?...i'm afraid...that subconsciously i'm afraid that i would not be able to write better than i had before...i mean..after all..it's handed in to the teacher and graded liao..there's no use of keeping it...sure...the thing im telling myself now is that...all my hardwork disappear just like that?...or even maybe cuz it's a specially good piece that i would like to keep or wadeva...but the fact is that...oh wells...i dunno what reasons are holding me back from deleting them...haiZ..

一个莫名其妙的下午。
　　莫名其妙的感动积压在胸里，发泄不出来。
　　想写点什么，却又不知道要写什么。

　　——请你驯养我吧。
　　狐狸这样对小王子说着。

　　并不是一个有趣的游戏。
　　关了电脑，去打电话。
　　“读过小王子和狐狸的故事吗？”
　　“没有。”
　　“……”

　　说着，自己是非常的奇怪。
　　但是……
　　没什么不一样吧……
　　说着那样的借口……其实是为了……

　　“……你的头发是金色的。假若你驯养了我，我也会爱上麦田的颜色。那是多么美妙的事情啊。”

　　寂寞？

　　“说这样的话，说什么喜欢，你觉得不奇怪？”
　　“不啊……”
　　是很久以前的对话了呢。

　　不想写作业。
　　时间过得好快又好慢。
　　奇怪吗？
　　不奇怪吗？？
　　微笑。

　　“我得走了。”
　　小王子对狐狸说着，“最终，你还是什么也没得到吧。”
　　“不，”狐狸摇头，
　　“我还有麦田的颜色。”

　　说着“喜欢”，很奇怪吗？
　　是担心啊。
　　并不是想说就可以说的时候……

　　很久以前。
　　不，也不太久……
　　想跟他讲一句话，但一直也没有。
　　直到他走了。

　　所以，下了决心。

　　请你，驯养我吧。


　　寂寞？

　　雨……
　　阴天……
　　下雨的季节……
　　听雨……

　　也许是真的很奇怪。
　　同样的雨天。

　　是希望，能够……
　　比较特别一点。

　　喜欢？不喜欢？

　　并不是那样。
　　是希望抓住，特别的东西吧。
　　在变化中……
　　能够有不变的东西。

　　所以，请你驯养我吧。:)

糟糕。。我又再说些有的没的了。。

HEY HEY~~~~ i'm in LEP room now WoR~^^..n i'm FORCED to write a post to entertain ANCHYI~~(anchyi:excuse moi...)..OOps..wo you bei fa xian le ^^lll..hahEZ..i've just written 3 lines of rubbish..ANCHYI u stop laughing~~ hmph~ don think i dono ur CHOU SHIs okies~~dono WHO hor say " malai i thought u r zhiping.." MUAHAHAHA...den justin leh? u tot he is zhile right??? :D..ok ok u don PEEP lehZ..it's illegal..u later den c lahZ..:P
heard tt the oDd couple's superb~ hahas..den i'm expecting a lot tonight :) MEL u jia you wor~~ lalalala..aiyah shit..guo hong chasing everyone out of the room liaoZ..later den continue my crapppppppp..:P

我死时 便是自由的 割舍或离弃 死去或消散
那些日子不可追寻 那些脸庞已难以辨认 我已听不见 看不见
从寂寞走向寂寞 从黄昏走向黄昏 在大痴或大悟的尽头
在落日里静静睡去 没有幻想 无所羁绊
不知道 这是瞬间的还是永恒的 灭绝的还是轮回的
月升时 地平线下 我的骨殖是一柄锈蚀的匕首 还在锈蚀 不停地锈蚀
我却是自由的 不管有没有灵魂

像风一样吹过

耳边的风在另一个世界里喧嚣，静寂的夜可以感觉到有轻盈的音符在舞蹈。我把头探出窗外，想要寻找一些并不是寒冷的感觉，一种只有在寂静和轻盈之中才会有的宁静和心灵的放松。

我知道也许在另一个世界里或是在不远的未来会有一个人喜欢和我一同趴在窗口吹风，在这寂静的夜中留下阵阵悦心的欢笑。

一个人坐在阳台上看着如漫天繁星的万家灯火，古怪的思绪在晚风中悠闲地飘浮着，突然想打一个电话，一个很久以前无数次拨打过的电话号码。可拿起的瞬间又放下了，必竟在这样的一个夜里，悠闲的只是我自己。五年前，曾想过创办一个网站，就如同现在的榕树下一样。可建网站容易，感悟人生中的苦辣酸甜，抒发自己真挚的人生感悟难，毕竟自己还很年轻，毕竟还有好多好多的路要自己去走，必竟还得面对一个不像自己的自己，去改变他，让他拥有理想中的人生。

别人的路是如何走的呢？想到中学一位很AP的女生上课时不断吹自己的头发，她说喜欢那种飘逸的感觉；想到小学和我同桌的几个好哥儿们，想到每次跟我拌嘴的淘气小男生，想到幼时曾经和我一起爬树的伙伴。

很晚了，机子里放着那张BANDARI的EI Condor Pass.那是我喜欢的一张专辑。我贪婪地聆听着那来自阿尔卑斯山的天籁之声，Sound of silence中那原始森林的鸟鸣，会使人如身临其境。不管你有没有试过，一个人在家的时候，享受这些美妙的音乐会别有一番情趣。

嗯，很晚了，我应当抱着我的牙刷睡觉去了。不然明天的UN talk、、、啊>........

平凡的一天结束了。

haha..a pretty long break fr blogger huh~..haiZ..dono y..just have nothing much to update..my ideas r running out..losing the touch of writing.URGH. maybe saturation pt reached? hmm..:S..oh well.it's nearly coming to the END of term 2!! i mean..though it seem as if MAY has just started or wat but HEY!! face it! 2 more wks to go before JUNE HOLS!! or rather the gate towards an endless struggle for the pathetic As~..OMG..come to think of it..wat have i done for the past 4..no 5 MTHS?!?!?! Huang Cheng was the ONLY presentable achievement..NOT pathetic ley..haIZ..have been slacking like nobody's business while everyone seem much in the ready-for-bitter-battle mode?!?! looking at KAN makes me ermZ..a little uneasy..he's so PIA!!!starting to revise history already..haha..while i'm still struggling with assignments n deadlines..urgh. i can foresee my doom days if i'm NOT going to get into the zhuang tai soon..n de whole bloody pt it i JUST CANT GET INTO THE ZHUANG TAI!!*shouts n screams*...URH!!!! FEELING LIKE A STUPID LOSER!! BLEAH!

ok. i'm just irritated by my irritating slacking attitude.:S

很羡慕那些会说，会交朋友的人，走到哪里也不会寂寞，总是能很快和周围的人打成一片，而且在公众的场合总是左右逢源，引人注目。

也许天生性格如此，我就不会那么热络人，女生在一起，最喜欢谈论偶像，这些话题最能引起共鸣了，可是有时候，我想不出这有什么可谈的，所以 我经常都是安静地看她们热烈地聊天。其实，我很喜欢那些天性热情的人的，自己也被这样的人吸引，把自己的热情传播开来，让大家心里都暖洋洋的，这样的人怎么会不让人喜欢呢。

我不喜欢淡漠，但是我更不喜欢虚伪，要我违心地对一个人热情，我也做不到，南中的几个要好朋友，不是经常见面，但是友谊却日久情深，只要偶尔想起，心中仍然温柔。只要有什么心事，最想让她们分担，所以，我不孤独。信奉一句话：人生得一知己，足矣。

对于感情，别人看来，我也很冷淡，我不是轻易容易被打动的人，也不会很早下结论，自然最好，自己知道，就象暖水瓶，外表是凉的，内心却很温暖。:)

sianZ..chiong until so pekchey for hist den in the end overslept!!!! i DUI DUI DUi..actually wan to go for su lao shi lesson lah..miss his lesson qutie a lot :) but hiyah..ok..i'm just lazy to move..a bit the dui bu qi xiya leh..coz js oso not in sch..Oops..but the rest of the lessons fei loh. i mean maths still ok but mei ling chen shi bo leh?!?!?! so decided not to go until election lah..my mom oso psychoing me not to~heeZ..

ARH!!!! cant online for like decades!! sian loh!! pc zhen de yao down lah..zhen de yao while my daddy is overseas lah..so end up poor me gotta fix the pc..dono how come my modem connection got prob~~ later gotta call singtel n qu3 jing1 T_T..so borbian gotta use in lep room..URGH..i feel deprived..:P..but actually is good oso..no temptation n distraction..but din turn out tt i mug more leh..OOps..:P..hahaha.. haiZ..rly is not got loads of things to update..but aiyah..too lazy..

abt the RJ drama rite..not tt i wan to CONDEMN lah..BUT WAH!! rly is not like lousy ley..so disappointing..prcs living in their own world again loh..wad fan3 ying4 3 generations of ppl..fr those babarians to de wu4 suo3 nanyang time to Jp occupation to now..URGH..heard fr Kan it's even worse den NJ...i think i can *faint*..the tai2 ci2 ke neng not CLICHE~~those supposed-v-funny (-_-) tai ci must repeat 3 times!!those taiwan PI LI HUO oso better lah!! somemore got pple LAUGH leh?!?!?! n the jokes r like lao she de you1 muo4 leh (pls refer to tea house...) oh manZ...wat's their prob? 10 yrs nv heard jokes liao izzit?! no wonder they like SHAN1 DONG4 REN2( the name of the drama)..coz they are shan dong ren themselves..quote an eg..got this gal smuggle to nanyang coz heard nanyang pian4 di4 shi4 gold (tt's NOT the de most cliche part..) den come already kena forced into prostitution..den all her sad sad life lah..(tt's not de end yet...hang on..)..den u noe wat she said?! wat.."nan ren dou shi mei you liang xing de dong xi!.....ta men dou shi qing shou! zhi yao wo de sheng ti!..blah.." -_-lll..i SEH loh!!den rounds of cheering n applause n cat calls fr the audiences...?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?! den she keep on repeating these stupid cliche things loh..den audience keep on cheering n clapping...wad de?!?!?! tsk tsk!! BUEY TAHAN~~...somemore still heard got a prc say wat this is better den huang cheng!!!! ask him go eat SHIT loh! but cant blame him coz he is a PRC~~ *hmph*...Oops...am i too mean or sarca huh? but aiyah..true mah..not tt all prcs r liddat..at least those i quite noe r not lah...HeeZ..but yall get wat i mean rite? i'm NOT discriminating :P..just voicing out my honest opinion :P..ok i think the High Frequency Word is CLICHE for this entry..haha..oh btw..saw FENG nian hao da XUE there oso~~ muahaha..her dressing arh..sent me -_-lll..dress until like above 25 liddat..but den no taste oso..somemore try to look armZ..a little "xing gan"...haiZ..yan2 bu2 jian4 wei2 jing4..but still kena sore eye..:/..ok..gotta go home to settle my pc liaoZ..signing off..:)