if u sing bad..n feel demoralised by wat pple say abt u..man..u ought to listen to william hung's cd "inspiration"..not tt i bought tt junky cd..but rather being a typical singaporean( haha..not quite though..:P)..i dl it..with lots n lots of remixes..bwahahaha..n i don feel bad..dunno y..maybe i'm just sadist n cynical..haha..but wat to do?:D

was on the bus today when i rmb these mp3s..den i just played it for myself to hear..and i couldnt help but burst out laughing..my fren was sitting beside me n she was like "hey yuzhe siao or wat.." in btw fits of laughter..i explained it to her..she din believe till she heard the mp3..n she TOO laughed SOOO~~ loud..everyone was staring at her n me..Oops..hahas..

tt cd..if given a rating..out of 5 stars..maybe i shd be generous n give it -5..but well..the humour is tremendous...so i shd give it -4..btw the album shd not be titled inspiration..coz all the songs belong to someone..lyke..Hotel California belongs to Eagles(i think)..darn ironic sia~ hahEz..:P

so i was clearing my comp todae...all my thousand-year-old files...oh wells yea...at least i've got my mp3 files sorted out :) and i realised..yuzhe's most dl grp/singer....-still- linkin park n jay man...hahaz
yarh remember my mum... telling me to go 'get my life in order' by packing my room....i mean...is the state of your room a direct parallel of the state of ur life? an apt metaphor to describe my current state of life?...n the prob is my room is NV by any means in any mess..it's just happened tt i have sooooooo many sheet/s of paper all piled up rather clumsyly on my desk( tt's the prob when dey refuse to have textbks) tt i end up in this pathetic state of doing my hw on the dining table..
but we digress u c....as i was about to delete some of my many hist essays n some managed-to-gou qie for 1 yr PW files...yes...stupid hist essays n PROJECT WORK (not piao wu..:p)...i suddenly....she bu de...as in canot bear to...i couldnt bear to delete dem....den i was wondering...wad the hell.it's hisT n PW....but yarh..den again...all my hardwork...flushed down the drain just like that...amazing...i just couldnt bring myself to do it...den my fren said aptly..."gal..must learn to let go"...yes it's true...i remember the last time i cleared my inbox of all those messages good and bad..u'noe those u want to remember cuz it's special and everything...i just deleted it all in a flurry..not a pre-meditated decision but rather one of emotional folly...but hey, must i say..i felt so good after i deleted it...felt like a tremendous weight had been lifted off my back...like i was free.....free from the clutches of my memories...
yes...that's wad it is...memories....yarh..i think..we all want to remember...we all want to have something to remind us of the better (? maybe...) times we had back then..to allow us to go back to their comfort in times of distress...and well yea..handphone messages give us de luxury....even if we dont look at our old messages...they do serve to remind us becuase...well, they're always there...they're like pictures...which reminds me...i dun have a camera of my own...partly coz i don't like taking pictures..but also i believe that pictures...are taken for memory...or rather...to help us remember of some wonderful time that we have...and silly me, at that time thot that if the memory was meant to be remembered...it would b remembered without the help of a picture..haha how idealistic of me.....y den would ppl write poems...draw pictures...film movies....or even blog?! y den am i blogging??!?...it is because i want to preserve this memory of this thought that i thought...it is because the writers want to remember their wise words...the painters want to remember their colourful imagination....oh wells...im getting damn luo suo :P
but what i was talking about is....yarh....the handphone thing...sometimes...clinging on to the beautiful past...prevents us from looking to the future...
aiyahz.....so yarh..bout those files.....why the hell am i still keeping them?...i'm afraid...that subconsciously i'm afraid that i would not be able to write better than i had before...i mean..after all..it's handed in to the teacher and graded liao..there's no use of keeping it...sure...the thing im telling myself now is that...all my hardwork disappear just like that?...or even maybe cuz it's a specially good piece that i would like to keep or wadeva...but the fact is that...oh wells...i dunno what reasons are holding me back from deleting them...haiZ..

一个莫名其妙的下午。
　　莫名其妙的感动积压在胸里，发泄不出来。
　　想写点什么，却又不知道要写什么。

　　——请你驯养我吧。
　　狐狸这样对小王子说着。

　　并不是一个有趣的游戏。
　　关了电脑，去打电话。
　　“读过小王子和狐狸的故事吗？”
　　“没有。”
　　“……”

　　说着，自己是非常的奇怪。
　　但是……
　　没什么不一样吧……
　　说着那样的借口……其实是为了……

　　“……你的头发是金色的。假若你驯养了我，我也会爱上麦田的颜色。那是多么美妙的事情啊。”

　　寂寞？

　　“说这样的话，说什么喜欢，你觉得不奇怪？”
　　“不啊……”
　　是很久以前的对话了呢。

　　不想写作业。
　　时间过得好快又好慢。
　　奇怪吗？
　　不奇怪吗？？
　　微笑。

　　“我得走了。”
　　小王子对狐狸说着，“最终，你还是什么也没得到吧。”
　　“不，”狐狸摇头，
　　“我还有麦田的颜色。”

　　说着“喜欢”，很奇怪吗？
　　是担心啊。
　　并不是想说就可以说的时候……

　　很久以前。
　　不，也不太久……
　　想跟他讲一句话，但一直也没有。
　　直到他走了。

　　所以，下了决心。

　　请你，驯养我吧。


　　寂寞？

　　雨……
　　阴天……
　　下雨的季节……
　　听雨……

　　也许是真的很奇怪。
　　同样的雨天。

　　是希望，能够……
　　比较特别一点。

　　喜欢？不喜欢？

　　并不是那样。
　　是希望抓住，特别的东西吧。
　　在变化中……
　　能够有不变的东西。

　　所以，请你驯养我吧。:)

糟糕。。我又再说些有的没的了。。

HEY HEY~~~~ i'm in LEP room now WoR~^^..n i'm FORCED to write a post to entertain ANCHYI~~(anchyi:excuse moi...)..OOps..wo you bei fa xian le ^^lll..hahEZ..i've just written 3 lines of rubbish..ANCHYI u stop laughing~~ hmph~ don think i dono ur CHOU SHIs okies~~dono WHO hor say " malai i thought u r zhiping.." MUAHAHAHA...den justin leh? u tot he is zhile right??? :D..ok ok u don PEEP lehZ..it's illegal..u later den c lahZ..:P
heard tt the oDd couple's superb~ hahas..den i'm expecting a lot tonight :) MEL u jia you wor~~ lalalala..aiyah shit..guo hong chasing everyone out of the room liaoZ..later den continue my crapppppppp..:P

我死时 便是自由的 割舍或离弃 死去或消散
那些日子不可追寻 那些脸庞已难以辨认 我已听不见 看不见
从寂寞走向寂寞 从黄昏走向黄昏 在大痴或大悟的尽头
在落日里静静睡去 没有幻想 无所羁绊
不知道 这是瞬间的还是永恒的 灭绝的还是轮回的
月升时 地平线下 我的骨殖是一柄锈蚀的匕首 还在锈蚀 不停地锈蚀
我却是自由的 不管有没有灵魂

像风一样吹过

耳边的风在另一个世界里喧嚣，静寂的夜可以感觉到有轻盈的音符在舞蹈。我把头探出窗外，想要寻找一些并不是寒冷的感觉，一种只有在寂静和轻盈之中才会有的宁静和心灵的放松。

我知道也许在另一个世界里或是在不远的未来会有一个人喜欢和我一同趴在窗口吹风，在这寂静的夜中留下阵阵悦心的欢笑。

一个人坐在阳台上看着如漫天繁星的万家灯火，古怪的思绪在晚风中悠闲地飘浮着，突然想打一个电话，一个很久以前无数次拨打过的电话号码。可拿起的瞬间又放下了，必竟在这样的一个夜里，悠闲的只是我自己。五年前，曾想过创办一个网站，就如同现在的榕树下一样。可建网站容易，感悟人生中的苦辣酸甜，抒发自己真挚的人生感悟难，毕竟自己还很年轻，毕竟还有好多好多的路要自己去走，必竟还得面对一个不像自己的自己，去改变他，让他拥有理想中的人生。

别人的路是如何走的呢？想到中学一位很AP的女生上课时不断吹自己的头发，她说喜欢那种飘逸的感觉；想到小学和我同桌的几个好哥儿们，想到每次跟我拌嘴的淘气小男生，想到幼时曾经和我一起爬树的伙伴。

很晚了，机子里放着那张BANDARI的EI Condor Pass.那是我喜欢的一张专辑。我贪婪地聆听着那来自阿尔卑斯山的天籁之声，Sound of silence中那原始森林的鸟鸣，会使人如身临其境。不管你有没有试过，一个人在家的时候，享受这些美妙的音乐会别有一番情趣。

嗯，很晚了，我应当抱着我的牙刷睡觉去了。不然明天的UN talk、、、啊>........

平凡的一天结束了。

haha..a pretty long break fr blogger huh~..haiZ..dono y..just have nothing much to update..my ideas r running out..losing the touch of writing.URGH. maybe saturation pt reached? hmm..:S..oh well.it's nearly coming to the END of term 2!! i mean..though it seem as if MAY has just started or wat but HEY!! face it! 2 more wks to go before JUNE HOLS!! or rather the gate towards an endless struggle for the pathetic As~..OMG..come to think of it..wat have i done for the past 4..no 5 MTHS?!?!?! Huang Cheng was the ONLY presentable achievement..NOT pathetic ley..haIZ..have been slacking like nobody's business while everyone seem much in the ready-for-bitter-battle mode?!?! looking at KAN makes me ermZ..a little uneasy..he's so PIA!!!starting to revise history already..haha..while i'm still struggling with assignments n deadlines..urgh. i can foresee my doom days if i'm NOT going to get into the zhuang tai soon..n de whole bloody pt it i JUST CANT GET INTO THE ZHUANG TAI!!*shouts n screams*...URH!!!! FEELING LIKE A STUPID LOSER!! BLEAH!

ok. i'm just irritated by my irritating slacking attitude.:S

很羡慕那些会说，会交朋友的人，走到哪里也不会寂寞，总是能很快和周围的人打成一片，而且在公众的场合总是左右逢源，引人注目。

也许天生性格如此，我就不会那么热络人，女生在一起，最喜欢谈论偶像，这些话题最能引起共鸣了，可是有时候，我想不出这有什么可谈的，所以 我经常都是安静地看她们热烈地聊天。其实，我很喜欢那些天性热情的人的，自己也被这样的人吸引，把自己的热情传播开来，让大家心里都暖洋洋的，这样的人怎么会不让人喜欢呢。

我不喜欢淡漠，但是我更不喜欢虚伪，要我违心地对一个人热情，我也做不到，南中的几个要好朋友，不是经常见面，但是友谊却日久情深，只要偶尔想起，心中仍然温柔。只要有什么心事，最想让她们分担，所以，我不孤独。信奉一句话：人生得一知己，足矣。

对于感情，别人看来，我也很冷淡，我不是轻易容易被打动的人，也不会很早下结论，自然最好，自己知道，就象暖水瓶，外表是凉的，内心却很温暖。:)

sianZ..chiong until so pekchey for hist den in the end overslept!!!! i DUI DUI DUi..actually wan to go for su lao shi lesson lah..miss his lesson qutie a lot :) but hiyah..ok..i'm just lazy to move..a bit the dui bu qi xiya leh..coz js oso not in sch..Oops..but the rest of the lessons fei loh. i mean maths still ok but mei ling chen shi bo leh?!?!?! so decided not to go until election lah..my mom oso psychoing me not to~heeZ..

ARH!!!! cant online for like decades!! sian loh!! pc zhen de yao down lah..zhen de yao while my daddy is overseas lah..so end up poor me gotta fix the pc..dono how come my modem connection got prob~~ later gotta call singtel n qu3 jing1 T_T..so borbian gotta use in lep room..URGH..i feel deprived..:P..but actually is good oso..no temptation n distraction..but din turn out tt i mug more leh..OOps..:P..hahaha.. haiZ..rly is not got loads of things to update..but aiyah..too lazy..

abt the RJ drama rite..not tt i wan to CONDEMN lah..BUT WAH!! rly is not like lousy ley..so disappointing..prcs living in their own world again loh..wad fan3 ying4 3 generations of ppl..fr those babarians to de wu4 suo3 nanyang time to Jp occupation to now..URGH..heard fr Kan it's even worse den NJ...i think i can *faint*..the tai2 ci2 ke neng not CLICHE~~those supposed-v-funny (-_-) tai ci must repeat 3 times!!those taiwan PI LI HUO oso better lah!! somemore got pple LAUGH leh?!?!?! n the jokes r like lao she de you1 muo4 leh (pls refer to tea house...) oh manZ...wat's their prob? 10 yrs nv heard jokes liao izzit?! no wonder they like SHAN1 DONG4 REN2( the name of the drama)..coz they are shan dong ren themselves..quote an eg..got this gal smuggle to nanyang coz heard nanyang pian4 di4 shi4 gold (tt's NOT the de most cliche part..) den come already kena forced into prostitution..den all her sad sad life lah..(tt's not de end yet...hang on..)..den u noe wat she said?! wat.."nan ren dou shi mei you liang xing de dong xi!.....ta men dou shi qing shou! zhi yao wo de sheng ti!..blah.." -_-lll..i SEH loh!!den rounds of cheering n applause n cat calls fr the audiences...?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?! den she keep on repeating these stupid cliche things loh..den audience keep on cheering n clapping...wad de?!?!?! tsk tsk!! BUEY TAHAN~~...somemore still heard got a prc say wat this is better den huang cheng!!!! ask him go eat SHIT loh! but cant blame him coz he is a PRC~~ *hmph*...Oops...am i too mean or sarca huh? but aiyah..true mah..not tt all prcs r liddat..at least those i quite noe r not lah...HeeZ..but yall get wat i mean rite? i'm NOT discriminating :P..just voicing out my honest opinion :P..ok i think the High Frequency Word is CLICHE for this entry..haha..oh btw..saw FENG nian hao da XUE there oso~~ muahaha..her dressing arh..sent me -_-lll..dress until like above 25 liddat..but den no taste oso..somemore try to look armZ..a little "xing gan"...haiZ..yan2 bu2 jian4 wei2 jing4..but still kena sore eye..:/..ok..gotta go home to settle my pc liaoZ..signing off..:)

hey hey~i seriously think i shdn't think too much haha..but sometimes cant help it mahZ. tt explains my presence in arts^^...haha..but rly thx a lot xiya,anchyi n mel for being so sweet n supportive :)...i rly appreciate u guys a lot~:)..

YUZHE zui pa ren wu zhi xue xiao pian..
1)mdm tay
2)Song YD
3)photocopying shop auntie..

hahah...u c..of all teachers..wo3 zui4 dui4 bu4 qi3 ta..haha..still owe her 1 SBQ (deadline last last last last wk) n her term essay (deadline last last wk) Oops..cant blame her for roaring during every lect for scripts lah..n she is needed to be the CT of 03a12..every morning gotta c her T_T..duo3 dou1 bu ke yi duo3 loh~~ darn..everytime c her like c wen shen--quickly siamZ..or hide behind xiya(rly helps :P)..haiZ...tmr's her lesson..shit loh..she ll go "yuzhe...WHEN R U GOING TO HAND UN UR ESSAY????? i'm NOT going to mark any LATE scripts anymore n i'm going to give ZERO! i DON CARE...." haha..den i ll use wat ivan chuan zhou wo de tatic--act blur n give her the daze look :P..hahha...but oh wells...i'm going to be BEI FA XIAN tmr loh~ o_O..

Song YD..HAIZ...everytime chase after me for my MC~ sianZ..as if he don noe i PON lahZ..den rly got parent help me write lahZ..zhen de bu shi every morning scream for my name den i quickly squat n hide under the class bench..shit loh..rly is not throw face..den everytime after morning assembly gotta chiong to the toilet before he calls for my name..needed...

AIYAH...ke neng zhen de bu shi everytime owe her BIG $$$$...tell u she rly can recognize me loh!!! on the streets oso ll wave HI to me..T_T...haha..still rmb last time she almost tell everyone who guang gu her dian to try to tell a gal call YUZHE to come pay up~~tt time rly is not big time shit for me~~hahah..so pple.. ur kelian de treasurer need to pay up again...don wan too many pple to noe me lahZ..ll wo hui hai xiu de wor~:D one leh me don wan to be AA~~muahahahha...
N HOR~ sOmE pple hor..still havn pay up for the LAST time( in the begining of the yr $5) ley...malai..wo3 bu2 shi4 zai4 jiang3 ni3..ni QIAN WAN bu yao wu hui~ :D:D:D:D

OH OH~ some one rly is big time BEI FA XIAN leh...i just borrowed this SAT book n as i was flipping, saw a letter dropping out..n guess wat?! it's a lOvE letter!! wah~~ i was quite jing bao dao..de date was last yr nov one..either it's J2 this yr or j3 lahZ...WAH~ dono wat to say..but he rly is 3 ge zi--bei fa xian loh~~~ haha..:P

夜，终于睡去。
不眠的灯和模糊的游魂。
我睁大双眼，注视黑暗之流汹涌而来，我无所畏惧。
寂静，静得令人感动。
只有我不安的心绪掀起无声的狂淘巨浪，不语的声嘶力竭。
一切都在静默中进行。
包括诞生和死亡。

种子在漫长的寂静和黑暗中孕育成长，终于会在十月后一个突然的时刻爆发出最原始最本能最响亮同时也是最纯洁的一声怒吼，向世界宣告了生命的开端。
生命的结束是完成一次次永无休止的循环。由声与光的世界退回到永恒的静默和黑暗之中。

为了最充分地使用生命，人们学会了做梦。以便身躯处于类似死亡状态时拯救自己的灵魂。用五彩斑斓的梦来欺骗自己，并奇迹般的用梦---和短暂死亡并行的一条线索，连接了几乎断裂的很多次生命。人类得以此将命中注定的很短的寿命延续到极限。

此时此刻，我却无梦。
我的生命断裂成无数段落，无法拼接。
深夜，我用双眼逼退死亡。
我正用笨拙的笔策划着蹩脚的文字游戏。
没有人和我做游戏，我独自游戏。
就在这静静的黑夜里，我拥抱寂寞，亲吻无聊。

我听到一首低歌，唱着无韵，说着无声。或许是我的心房，隔着厚厚的胸腔，拍打着神秘的密码，暗示我一道神思。
我想悲哀，却支借不出一丝情绪。
无喜无悲，是大彻大悟后的升华？还是大痛大苦之后的麻木？
时间已被我战败，悄悄滑向另一个刻度。
我只有胜利者的迷漫，悔恨自己掉入时间的圈套，且无法自拔。
那首无韵无声的歌又低低的传来，将我团团围住，由我耳，我鼻，我口，我眼闯入我的体内，每个细胞都被充斥，挤压着我，逼迫着我。
我无助无奈的悲哀着。
我不知道手里握着什么样的主题，只知道我唯一拥有的这一空间，这段黑暗，这分宁静将被打破，被分享，被侵占。不久我将全面崩溃，献出物质和精神的一切。于是趁着黑夜，我尽情的挥霍着自由，拼命翻动思想，把自己晾晒在明丽的月光下。
也许，明月中有一个手舞足蹈的倒影，那是我。
它以一种完全相反的状态来理解我。
我明白。

HAHA!! went to FUTH's house yesterday with xiya (but din c RUTH :D:D..where was she huh futh? :D:D) btw..RLY NOT FAR leh..walked for dono how long loh! but oh wells..:) dono WHO say his HOUSE not very big..but u c..for those normal bunlgows, u can c the house b4 u in front of the dua gate rite? but NO LOH! we have to walk straight for quite a distance after passing the gate lah..den u ll c this small pond...den u gotta turn...den walk for another distance DEN can c his house~~-_-lll...haha..b4 tt xiya actually asked futh who actually take care of the plants lah..coz got a lot of flowers on the fence n along the sides of his "garden"..but futh say it's his GARDENER(note: gardener does not refer to his mom or maid :D)..wahbiang eh~ me n xiya rly is not @_@...

ok..continuation of the fun exploration..heehee..as we li jing chang sang lai dao n step into his not-very-BIG house..there's this rather posh room to the left..design rly is not like those baroque type lah..i tot it's like de master bed room or wad...but was thinking HEY~ rly got master bed room at this 'strategic' location ley..haha...den futh enlightened us tt---it's the KE4 FANG2! yuzhe n xiya *fainted*..haha...what it this!! the ke fang is even bigger den MY ROOM!! T_T..haha..but heng he nv say it's the MAID's room..:P hahahha...OH! by the way..there's a small golf court(?) n a table tennis table at his door too if i fail to mention..:P AIYAH~ yall get wat i mean lah...

ORH!!! quite a no of shou huo in futh's house :) saw the tchs graduation fotos n mag..WAHAHAHAHAHA...very entertaining n amusing!!:D..had a fun (n pekchey) time trying to locate all the tchs pple tt we noe( or at least got c b4 ones) in the oh-so-big sec 4 grp foto...hahaha...justin is the first one spotted..coz of his contrasting skin colour~:P heehee..realized gan zhi wei even kena ostro when there's so many ppe loh...hahahahahh Oops..but guess everyone look pretty much the same lah..no stunning surprises.(ok fei hua).heehee..but EH~ is the sch biased or wad?! how come all those muggers n gepers all stand in front?? pple like jiang jian zi..n boxing n blah..bleah~ ....but had a good time scheming~~~HAHA...Oops :P...OHOH!! but den we cant spot futh n kenneth!! haha..there seemed to be a lot kenneth-look-alike pple leh~~ den in the grad mag me n xiya saw this person tt look damn like him lah...n we went "this one must be him" den futh went "......TT'S ME!!THX LEY"...hahahahah...but seriously in tt foto dey look alike..hahah...but -shH- betta don let kenneth noe this..:X

haha..fun time at futh's house..nxt time must go his house play~^^V..

蓝色，清澈的忧伤。
谁会懂，谁愿懂。
走过一路，真正留了多少眼泪只有自己知道。房间里幽蓝的烛光陪着心中的忧伤，依然不会感觉温暖，却有些许的安心。也许它们本来就是应该在一起的吧。
咽下一口咖啡，嘴角翘了翘，有些冷了，好苦……

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幽蓝…… 不只是一种颜色，是一个旋律。关于生命的旋律。
永远是那种淡淡的忧伤……一声声的叹息之后人们看到的颜色

今夜又是一个人醒着，习惯的自言自语。也会心慌，已经不再紧张了。不急着睡去，更不用急着醒来。太阳快出来的时候，我会站在窗口说一声，晚安。然后沉沉睡去。醒来的时候，我会说，晚上好。时间久了，我觉得太阳是与我无关的。时间，对我来说形同虚设。我很恶劣的把时钟的电池拿掉，然后把电脑里的时间乱按一通……

蜡烛被我熄灭了。我舍不得，舍不得我的忧伤，舍不得我的眼泪。

依然是选了一首歌。重复听，听到麻木，甚至厌恶。只是多了一杯咖啡。这改不掉的老毛病，我死死的爱上了这种心情。

《花样年华》看完了，很熟悉的感觉。和那只蓝色蜡烛一样的忧伤，心脏已经停止了跳动，却清晰地感到疼痛……我还是逃不过这样的悸动。就像我爱的那盏灯，昏昏暗暗，混合着咖啡的浓香，我可以很安静的陪它们一整夜。我很多次告诉自己，随缘。可是我知道我还需要练习...

天气糟糕，心情糟糕。

于是，雨邂逅泪滴。

雨说；我们相似，因为我们都是透明体。

泪说；你错了，我并不透明，我色彩斑斓。里面画满了色彩斑斓的感情。

雨说；我们相似，因为我们坠落的方向一致，由上而来，最终都是滑下去。

泪说；你错了，我心里早已弯弯曲曲，圈转了一次又一次。

雨说；我们相似，因为我们都是一滴一滴。

泪说；你又错了，当我滑下去的时候，我在心里早已蓄满，早就藏了何只一潭。

雨说；我们相似，因为我们都是水分子。

泪说；不，我的成分并不那么单纯，我的味道是咸的，调和着伤心和忧郁。

雨于是笑了，对泪说；不管相不相似，这一刻，我们的结局却注定要融合在一起。

泪还想反驳，却已被雨紧紧拥入了怀里。

今晚的天气还算凉爽，微风吹来，喝着冰可乐，听着ENYA的歌曲，好想留住这种感觉。对着电脑也不知道该干些什么，生活也许就是这样乏味，好久没写日记了，因为每天重复着相同的事，也没有什么特别的。
翻起1992年写的日记真是可爱。

1992年11月3日星期一
早上我们班到公园去玩。我们班排着整齐的队伍出发了。我们走到公园里，老师对我们说别到河边去玩，老师还对我说不要到石头上去走。我们高高兴兴的去玩了。有的玩跷跷板，有的玩滑梯，有的骑自行车，有的爬路梯，还有的荡秋千，我们玩好了以后，我们都吃午饭，我们吃的饱饱的（发现当时把饱写成了包:D，原来写别字的历史这么悠久..:P)。我们排着整齐的队伍回家了。

看着自己1992年用铅笔写的日记，泛黄的纸让我心中莫名的伤感，也许我的童年真的太美好了，让我的心里始终保留着这么一片清净的天空，没有污染，真的不知道用什么词语可以表达我现在的心情...

Question: what's the 2nd most unreliable way to judge a person's knowledge?

Ans: Look at his GCE O-Level results

The most unreliable way is to look at his A Levels.

To all of you uneducated, and iliterate people out there, the GCE (or 'General Certificate of Education' A Level exams are forced upon almost all the 18 yr olds every year. These young people are generally harmless, have no criminal record and have never done nobody no wrong, so no one really knows why they have to suffer such an unpleasant fate.

To Singapore parents, the GCE examinations are also affectionately nown as 'Get Chicken Essence' exams. This is because , on the eve of important papers, we can often find many mothers forcing their children's jaw open with iron rodes and pouring many litres of these dark liquid down the throats. This is done in the hope that somehow their sons and daughters' IQs will shoot up overnight.

Recently, however, newspapers reported that a significant minority of students have managed to pass their exams without the aid of this drink. This news caused much rejoicing in the local chicken community. The successful students had attributed their success to more unorthodox means (eg. studying)

In Singapore, the O and A Level exams are usually held in Novermber and December. The exam scripts are then bound up and sealed in the presence of officials, security guards and armed Ninja warriors before being sent to the United Kingdom for marking.

----extract fr THe Teenage Workbook...haha...find it quite hilarious ermZ..sarcastically lah~..haha..Oops...but come on...i'm sure u pple ll be able to appreciate the sarca-ness...muahaha...:D thx mel for going down to ur grandma's house just to get the bk for me~...:) heehee...me is Very Touched wor~ *wink*

xiao huang cheng has ended...which marked de offical end of Huang Cheng 2004 :(...it clashed with council thingy..so we cant rly use their di pan (inner plaze) where they were like dancing n singing lahZ..so poor us borbian had to go audi dere..-_-.. so as i was walking towards the left wing S7s benches...saw ellery n zhuang hui n (maybe pingkiat) those grp of councilors stoning at one of the benches...not stoning but..erm..like zhuanghui playing guitar n the others hum together softly...wat a contrast with the havok in inner plaza..i got this feeling tt they might be tearing or wat...as in tt kind qiao1 qiao1 de luo4 xia4 nan2 ren2 de lei..it was like...SO SO SAD...it's like last yr this time..they were the new elects going all these...n after contributing so much of ur time to HC to SC...it's now going into history...just like everyone of us izzn't it..it's time for us to xie4 ren4...time to pass the baton to J1s...URH~ *slap*slap* guess i'm getting too emotional nowadays..:(..

ok ok~ just like to comment tt----HOW COME xiao huang cheng is getting more n MORE huang( as in se qing) porn..horny?!...-_-...all those GAY until i hair stand actions...URGH!!!!! ESP the DAO JU performance!!!! WAH!! it's erm..ERM..how shd i put it..TOO EXPLICIT?! wah!!! so disturbing!!! wat's with all the GAYING?!?!?!?! T_T...this is NO GOOD wor~!! hahaha...WAH!! still cant get over it..URGH~ URGH! i think all those who watched...be it guys or gays lah...urgh..ll feel..erm...disturbed!!! EEEEEEeeeeeeeee....sorry lah...but i'm stating the truth~ Oops...haha...but i had to say the 'actors' r good..but still....URGH!...no any kind of GAYNESS fr now onwards pls!!! rly is killing me...URGH...T_T..

狐狸深深望了小王子一眼，「请你—训练我听话！」

第一次看到这句话时，我的心竟然为之悸动不已，是否…我的內心深处…也如同那只狐狸一般，渴望着被人驯养？
总是习惯一个人自由自在地生活着，对于自己的日子沒什么不滿，也沒什么特別的期待。
他們总说，「你真是一个淡泊名利的人呀！」
我是吗？也许我只是尚未找到可以执著的东西而已吧？
像小王子所遇见的那只狐狸，『我只是地球上千千万万只平凡狐狸的其中之一』，在这之前，世界一样运转着。
但听小王子说了他对玫瑰的钟爱后，狐狸心里起了变化。
『如果你驯养我，那么我們就会对彼此有所需要。对我而言，你是世上独一无二的；对你而言，我也是世上绝无仅有的…』
狐狸渴望着被需要与依赖別人，或许，这也是我打从心底羨慕与渴求的愿望。
只是…能滿足我的小王子，究竟在哪儿？

发现一个人的时候，容易伤怀，特别是看过一段忧伤的文字，或者听过一曲清幽的音乐，都觉得心里有一种渐渐融化的感动，象涟漪轻轻地漾开。但是，就是喜欢这种蓝调的情绪，有点孤独，有点忧郁，有点淡漠，有点飘逸，一种感觉吧。
喜欢就是最好，喜欢选择在文字和音乐里迷失，忘记了时间，忘记了很多琐碎的事情 ，就象现在，桌前几本书，墙上一小幅油画，透过淡蓝的窗帘撒进些不很强烈的阳光。
让心情好好轻松一下，暂时忘记了还有什么要去做。
是的，没有人知道此刻我正独自写些无关紧要的心情文字，在浮华的表象背后，我是个喜欢安静的人，透过平淡的生活还留着些许浪漫的痕迹，我想这是性格决定的吧。
偶尔一个人的浪漫是轻松而纯粹的，在和朋友们一起热热闹闹的聚会之后，希望有一个可以漂洗心情的时刻，可以看书，听音乐，或者写下些文字，让那些叫做浪漫的情绪自由的纷飞吧，别笑我，不是不够成熟，只因为我喜欢。

舞终于知道错了。
轻云飘缠的群山，诡异地圈成一个回往，像极了命运的轮，舞只是轮回中饱受嘲弄的一粒尘埃。
起风了。舞站在山顶，想起那个风。如果不是风的眼神，舞不会注意他。舞曾奢望风可以带她远去，逃开。但风是没有定性的，一时眷顾，轻拨舞的心弦，终归还是启程，带走企盼。
闭上眼，拥抱来风。舞泛起了笑。
风，依旧是潇洒来去的风。
舞，在风中自舞。

darn. i'm procrastinating my tutorials like crazy...guess it's rly time to ermZ..start working..haiZ...but still...though i like su lao shi's lesson..but glad tt fri don have..haha coz don feel like writing zuo wen..o_O..keep telling myself tt i shall start mugging later (how late is infinite sia~)...HAIZ..rly shd stop slacking liaoZ..:(

oh~ something to spice up my life! i wanna watch untold scandal n my girl!!! anyone interested??? cant imagine my first movie of the yr was haunted mansion~~~urmZ..quite pathetic..brainless show manZ..weak plot oso..typical HOLLYWOOD B- grade movie!! haha...legally blond oso much better! but oh wells..cant blame coz i was the one who initiated to watch it~ Oops..hahaa...:P..but watching such fatous movies once in a blue moon was not tt bad after all...hahaha...

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!@#$ i wan to dump my history papers lah..burn it fry it..tore it..WATEVA it loH~ T_T.. *crys*..cant control the subject at all..spent quite a time schemeing one qn(origins of cold war)..den in the end just BARELY pass..barely as in rly barely 13/25 -_-...then the other qn i kind of roughly studied n did (end of cold war)..which i was like had absolutely NO idea how to do it (i cant do any other topics coz i kan dou mei kan) n just went on crapping ..wrote this whole load of rubbish but got 17/25...WAT IS THIS SHIT U TELL ME??? T_T...history is driving me crazy lah...though wo BU FU ZHONG WANG failed the other SEA paper(teh look at me everytime with his zhao pai sarca grinZ..:P n shake head sia~ haha Oops:P)..haha....haiZ..if there's one sub i can drop..hey hey~~HISTORY u no need paiseh lah...JIU SHI NI LE WOR~~...haiZ..consider if i drop hist...then i left LEP Econs n Math..this shows wat? i'm neither sci or arts inclined...ermZ.tt's quite sad.(toking in thia's slang)..hahaha...haiZ..god noes how shd i handle my history nowZ..bleah..oh well..shall not badmouth hist so much...sca-ly sally n teh come online to check it out den i THAT"S IT~ (den denden den den den den den ....dendendenden den den den den den...)(haha..the cheena "tt's it MUSIC~" haha ...:P

窗口旁鱼缸内的鱼群作息一如往常
理不清它们是喜怒亦或是忧伤
我把泪顺势滴在它们所谓的水床
好希望它们能替我分担一些些伤

过往幻化为泪滴与水溶为一缸
我看到鱼儿轻舔舐去我的凄怆
忧伤于是转成为气泡浮出水面上
“啵”的一声从此消失隐藏
再也无从追计散落的方向

连宋和陈吕的荒谬之极的交战，无动于衷是我由始至终态度。连宋和陈吕之间的区别大体上来说真的在于对台独的态度。基于选举因素，连宋只能选择站在与阿扁对立的立场来选举。基本上，国民党一直以来都是支持台独，连宋at best只是支持慢性台独罢了。so wat's the pt manZ.. 让他们闹下去吧...闹得越凶越好。反观中国政府，已经让我越来越受不了。令.人.反.感。在外交上，你的软弱迟疑令人羞愧。除了“中央将会密切关注台湾...”“中国中央将慎重警告台湾...”，你到底做了什么？听腻了。只要人家美国一出马，不就灰溜溜，乖乖就范。点头哈腰--历来的外交政策。访问了不下百名中国青年对于日本再次侵华这一假设的态度，近半表示乐意当汉奸。wat is this shit..如果说经济的侵略是道德沦丧的根源，i have nothing to say...但是 my BELOVED CCP，如果你的贪污腐败虚伪无能没有令人这么心灰意冷，如果大家对于目前的生活不能说满意，但还过得去的话，现象会这么严重吗？一味地谴责国民性弱点，好片面。徘徊在即将完完全全的失去民心的边缘，N U R NOT DOING ANYTHING MUCH. 你---好.至.为.之.