flipping back 《伤心咖啡店之歌》, i'm now amazed at how apt the author is at merging all kinds of philosophies. With that, i shall say most earnestly--that 《伤心咖啡店之歌》is,essentially, Greek. I've advanced(with pride), from merely being marvelled by my virgin touch with philo (how innocent)to an amatuer able to spot certain prominent schs of philo. Pre-Socrates, Socrates(and Narcissus), Neoplatonism and even Skepticism. Liberation of the Soul ( Neoplatonism), to leave the embodied world of the senses behind so that 马蒂's emancipated spirit could achieve an esctatic union with the Divine--that's where real freedom and truth lies. “在冥想中她的意识不断扩大，扩大，扩大到弥漫充满了整个宇宙。她与宇宙等大，与她之外别无一物，连别无一物的概念都没有。于是不再因为找不到方向而彷徨，因为所有的方向都在她之内，自己就是一切的边境，所以不再有流浪。”That's the essence of the book. din comprehend the ending during the first flight with the book, the significance of mathi's death, now i see light.

Skepticism isnt at all that skeptic as it's..well name suggests. It merely suggests the only way to live a virtuous life was to dispense with philosophy altogther(ineffectively bothersome!) and stop asking such questions, as there werent any answers to them. Another enlightenment of Mathi before her momentous death. “山顶上的马蒂领悟了，生命的意义不在追求答案，答案只是另一个答案的问题，生命在于去体会与经历。”

guess i really love philo books apart from lit.that's why i love milan kundera and paulo coehlo.but great works are usually a combination of both. that's why i heart 红楼. And i'm skeptic, i mean the familiar skeptic. skeptic of all the things that we are doing or rather i'm doing for ourselves. i feel so sad looking at millions of ppl wasting most of their live, esp those most beautiful years, doing things that they find no pleasure in. some dont even realize how much they are forgoing in life even at their deathbeds.Just tell me how many accoutants LOVE their jobs you will get the pt. But then again, just like what biao quoted from huo yuan jia: 活着并不是一个人的事..we are so connected with the ppl ard us..so much so that my absolute right to do something could hurt, or even deprive others' rights. Responsibility's too hard (ethically and emotionally) to break away. Financial ability is so critical to maintain a reasonably good life. So, according to mathi, her 2nd enlightenment, what is experiencing life? experiencing such a life? is there a pt in experiencing? or is this the ultimate truth in life?

are you confused? i am. No wonder i'm not enlightened. coz im still questioning life. 因为..我是马蒂也是吉儿，是藤眺也是海安，是小叶也是素园。